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short CNY post

2012-01-26T00:20:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year people!!! Nah just so you know. CNY isn't bored for me this year. lol. like seriously I am just too lazy to type more. Angpau Gamble and Beers. yea I suck at gamble always lose but hmm nvm that's not a big deal hahaha. Anyway is double excitement as my exam was just over 2 days before CNY begins. We will see how well I did in March. lol.

Not many pictures for CNY. but just three of them.

Oh btw was hosting a German boy for CNY and yea we did have good time.

Sepang Gold Coast u like?

My work. LOL.

Happy CNY !!!

fatt - holiday please be long. hahaha

Damn

2012-01-16T23:24:00.003+08:00

Nah the mood just wasn't right. I was damn freaking productive for the past two days. But today is just a bad day. I procrastinated for almost the whole freaking day and yet guess what Econs 2 is on Wednesday. Terrible. All the upcoming three papers are the one I worry about. Hectic papers back to back. Imagine how well u can do for physics. Yea last paper for this exam. Anyway lecturer forgotten my appointment today so I have no way to arrange other time anymore since I need to concentrate for other subjects. So now who is gonna clear my doubts for physics? Ah.... anyway I really hope the papers will be easy. Screw Physics 1 and maybe chemistry 1 which took half of my soul away. Trust me the paper this time is much harder than all the past years. Screw this shit.

Anyway have to back to econs after this.
Wish me luck. I need luck for three more days :)

Gonna kill it !
finger crossed =x

Fatt - If and only if that happen

3 more days

2012-01-09T16:09:00.001+08:00

3 more days till the first paper.

Seriously is damn hard to study at house here in KL cause I have no proper study table here. Kinda miss the one in Kuantan. I will fall asleep either on bed on couch. Terrible right yea thats why I am studying outside here. hahaha. Damn 3 more days what will you do? Seriously for last minute people like me. No time is enough. Thats why I think hmmm. Do whatever I can these days and errr depends on luck. What has to come will come. Yeaw. Gave bunch of business to coffee bean and starbucks these days. mostly coffee bean though they should thanks me lol. Went to national library yesterday and yes it was damn freaking quiet until I don't even dare to speak. Shooooot I still prefer atmosphere here in coffee shop. Not too quiet nor too noisy. Ouch.

Anyway time to get back to some economics question after this post.
Have fun for those having breaks starting back college soon or started their school.
Good luck for fellow Edexcel A-levels candidates. First paper started just now 2pm wheee...

I need lots of luck this coming thursday and friday. and Next wednesday Thursday and friday!!!

God bless me :)

Fatt - chiong ah !!!

random

2012-01-03T17:56:00.000+08:00

Hi people. Just bored and wanna do something else. hahahaha Too lazy to study. Seriously and this weather is killing me. I can just sweat by sitting there. Where is the mood to study? 9 more days left and I am chill like hell. Something is just so wrong. My goodness......

Seriously I hope last minute do help for Alevels. If not... Die la.

Kinda like my bug out effect up there. HAHAHAHA!

ciao man. Wish me luck. I need motivation to study.

btw. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

Fatt

It's .....

2011-12-27T00:16:00.000+08:00

Not updating recently. Was busy for the mock exams and err life basically. LOL. So I screwed the exams. I knew it cause I didn't really study. Fine for that but not for the real one which is coming. Dang. I am nervous but I did no shits yet. Nvm the war starts tomorrow. Work for the satisfaction, the glory.

Went to China few days back. Okay I have to admit that I dont really like cold weather. It's so err. Troublesome. My cousins were happy because they saw snow but I had that poker face I think. Lol. Its terrible because it was too misty and I cant really get good pictures of the awesome sceneries down the mountain. I never like snow. It's too bloody cold. and I just shivered for hours up on the top of mountain. But err I cant deny that those were good times. haha.

So now u have to understand why people stereotype Asian as genius. Cause they did all kind of "impossible" things and it was really impressive. Thanks to China people. Seriously I was quite impressed by what I saw. Not only the awesome mountain lakes view but all the infrastructures they have. Their growth in economy is superb. and the way they do their things. When we Malaysians brag about our MSC people working hard. Look how they develop. Economically. I was really impressed by one of the performance I saw in a small town called Zhangjiajie. So this town was quite a small place. In china. and Imagine. A small town like this they got awesome theatre music hall. And they are pushing the tourism because of all the gifts from mother of nature. But think. A small town like this
they came up with great performance. With all the background and effects and you know china which always "over-do". So you will be like "wow" I never expect this in a small town. Seriously I think they did a real great job. And of course not to forget all the buildings and railroads and lots more. I remember we always read about the "Smart tunnel" during our geography years but hmm look Jalan Tun Razak just flooded that day. And that may be the only long tunnel in KL. Err I think I have went through countless tunnel in China. so what's so great?

Okay I have to say they may develop well in economy but hmm socially I dont think so. Maybe this only apply to the older generation. THEY DONT KNOW HOW TO QUEUE UP. which really pissed me off. We were lining up for train. and look those old china men and women were behind us. So we Malaysians were in line. and the train came...... I saw those old men and women ran and got on the train and I was like WTF? Didnt u see us lining up? and end up half of us have to wait for the next train. At first I was thinking okay should let the elders get on the train first but look. They are old but they are better in these. My parents told me in big cities like shanghai or beijing this will be even worse. I was like I will never go to those place if not I will shout the hell out to those people. But I think I will go someday though lol. Anyway just stereotyping.

Anyway I learned a lot.

So if you wanna show off. Look around you first.
I didnt even fucking say a word and you are bragging about how well you did. Yes I heard you but I aint gonna say a word till you find that out yourself and you will be ashamed of what you did in front of me. I was pissed.

HARDCORE STUDY

fatt - ciao all A's for all papers. and hopefully full marks !

December!

2011-12-02T00:47:00.001+08:00

I was in a good mood to share. But I wasn't in a mood to write. So that screw.

Been busying with all my mock exams these days. The worst paper I had is economy so far. Just couldnt get an A yet. Thank god that was only Pre-mock. Hope i can do better in the mock next week. Life's been bored. Studying all the time. Worrying about all the stuffs. I was really depress when I was doing my Chem Unit 1 today. Seriously that wasn't consider easy for me. Yet teacher said it was an easy paper. I wonder if that's real or not. If that's really easy. Dang. My whole december gonna be tortured. Have to take everything seriously. build from the base again.

Man. This stage of life may be the best.
But the efforts you need to put in. Thats a lot.
Yea have to pump up a bit to do all this things so that I dont do shits.

I hate december. Last year
This year.
and most probably. Next year!

Fatt - everything is alright.

Passion

2011-11-22T20:25:00.001+08:00

If only you remember this.

Its been long since I open my violin case. After music-thon perhaps? Thank god the strings aren't break yet. But its all rusty. Time for new strings! Suddenly thought of the wedding this coming weekend and yea I am gonna play for my cousin (if the plan didnt change). haha. So its time to bring back the skills. Too bad it will not be a quartett. Oh dang seriously I miss KA man. all the wedding performances and christmas pot-luck party and concertsssss! Wooh I really wish I could stay for form 6 and be active in orchestra for another 2 more years. Lol. Too bad form 6 isn't my first choice ><. Sometimes I just wonder. Will I ever play them after I grow up? I hope yes. Its like the best way to release stress. Like now. Near to exams. haha. I was nervous. But I did nothing. Damn. When will that last minute attitude change huh? Everybody's aiming for full marks. I dunno why but seems like its a trend for "awesome" students. lol

Alright too lazy to type long though. haha.

Fatt - need some baby girls.

Start now!

2011-11-15T20:49:00.001+08:00

Hey man so I was back from camp and sick for a couple days. Dang sleep is really important I guess. I dont think I got more than 15 hours of sleep in that 4 days. LOL. alright so now back to reality. Gosh I was so lost in physics just because I missed two classes. Like shit seriously. Its really time to catch up everything before everything come. I am scared of all the mocks exams which are coming up actually. This aint like me. hahaha I was a last minute pro. hopefully I am too for now.

Bang. Just a short update. I will blog more when I have mood or maybe I just wanna take a break from my studies. HARDCORE STUDY STARTS NOW. hopefully. lol.

Sorry that I didnt share much about the camp. Too lazy to type for now. lol.

Man I need some pills for concentrate in class ><

Good luck all to all form 5 and form 6 students.

Fatt - no pain no gain !

111111

2011-11-11T11:11:00.000+08:00

Happy 11:11 11-11-11 !

Middle of no where.

2011-11-10T23:28:00.000+08:00

In Janda Baik now as a facilitator for the first time to mentor them guys in social entreprenuership. my god I dont even know what that is. I thought it was an English Enrichment Project for primary school students but it turned out to be mostly form 4 students. hahaha anyway luckily we have module and senior mentors that we can refer to. The two groups I am handling in such big contrast. I would say its challenging. Luqman told me : your group look scary. Yea I had that feeling at first too but after talking to them for bout a day I realize they are just fine. Just that they are loud a bit and whats the word. daring? no idea. So huh dont judge people by the look. hahaha. Freaking tired right now but it's gonna be fun tomorrow. Goodnight :)

Beach!

2011-11-08T23:18:00.001+08:00

I dont think you have any single reason to not love the beach. Wheeee.. I kinda miss those days when I had good camera skills (I think) haha and nice hairstyle. seriously I hate my hair now man. Ever since I went to USA everyday was a bad hair day. even now. shoooooot. Cant get back the style I want. Hmm.. Forget bout that. Really miss the breeze. Its been almost 2 months I didnt back to Kuantan. and I remembered the I didnt go to the beach too last time because it was a rush I guess. Man you gotta love the sea breeze and how it can calm your mind after studying. Like seriously. I can just sit on the beach alone for a long time. Its not emo. But relax and calm. Seriously damn cool. Awwww. I want a house by the beach in the future. But that will cost like shit. Nvm. Believe that I gotta earn that much. haha. dreams ><.

Anyway I got freaking good mood today. Dunno why. But yea I felt refresh and awesome. wheeee !!!

Ciao man. Dont miss me too much. Haha. WIll try to update more. I mean dig some time out to update even though I am now scared by the mock exams. hehe

Fatt - We both have the secrets that nobody knows. Its sweet and sad in a way. that we will never get along :(

0211

2011-11-02T20:12:00.003+08:00

Those were the days that no one cared. I picked up the sticks and tried to clean up the mess that I created but well. Seems like some dust need to be cleaned up completely. It did not fade. Where are the winds to bring them away? I wonder if those are the points that we were talking about. It's meaningless to have anything now. I found my own way to live life and you had the way you wanted. Nothing else matters.

Peeps. Raining like shit these days. and for three consecutive days... It rained when it was almost time for me to get out from class. Damn frustrated. Thank god I met friends who could offer me a ride to main block to pick up my car. Let's hope this will not happen again as raining during those hours really made us been through lots of hassles. and traffic jam.

Dang city life is so bored. Its a wastage of time. I dont want to spend that much time in car. 10 minutes drive can just put u into a 50 minutes or an hour drive just because raining, peak hours or some accidents. ahhhh.... So i asked my dad when will KL be like Singapore or Japan which the subway linked to almost every part in the city. But hmm i guess u should know the answer too. LOL. Look at our public transport system now. Dang.

Okay fine too many things in one post.
Have a nice day ppl.

3110

2011-10-31T20:34:00.003+08:00

I wish I am a good writer but I ain't. Yeah there are a lot of times when you dont feel concentented with who you are and you wish u can be better and that makes frustration and emotions. But nobody really know how to be contented, somehow someday or sometimes they complain. Yea its a norm. You can't blame on human because these are what they are.

I love getting inspirations. Because that keep me moving. I realized how imperfect I am when I am facing with others. The world ain't that small in someway (small sometimes) because you can really see bunch of awesome people, how they speak how they write and how they act. It's a learning from observation. I am impressed by those ppl. Especially those who are really smart but they dont show off. Yea. those are ppl who really know things. Unlike those which I wonder if they dont know what's embarrasing means.

Bang it's been long time since I updated. Really sorry bout that. Life's been busy. Getting active in YES Alumni which I think is a good thing. I really love doing volunteer jobs and community services. like seriously. You may think only stupid do that but I know it's not that way. If you think so you are an asshole yourself. I am not paid to do that but what I get is a sense of satisfaction and accomplishment. and I learned a lot from all that and I believe it will make my life better :)

Okay whatever. Its november tomorrow.
I have to start studying for Mock. Dang

I am pumped !!! Happy Halloween btw !

fatt - no judgement

What have u done?

2011-10-26T16:40:00.000+08:00

It's the same

2011-10-15T23:13:00.003+08:00

I was supposed to study today but I didn't. Yea I was lazy to take the book out from the bag and yeah I had no idea why. Days were awesome as I have much to do and I have better concentration in class these days. Guess what. I couldnt get a clear idea of my future yet. Seriously that's something getting on me and yeah not only that but scholarships too. I don't want fa-ma scholarship for overseas. It's terrible to go overseas like that. I have been browsing throughout people's blogs on their experiences on scholarship interviews and everything seems so hard. Yet u think u are good but there're always people who are better. It's so freaking hard. How ah? I don't feel like doing degree locally as I can see college life out there will have so much fun. It's just some dreams like I wished to be an adult when I was a kid. But now.... It's different stories everywhere. My grey hairs are growing out... What to do.

Yeah it's always in dilemma to choose what's really good for you. And especially u have no special interests in anything and anything just seems alright to you. I wish I can have a glance on my future. What I am good at. People often say work for your future but hmmm I just scared that I may regret?!

Yea the world is realistic. Not all passions in us that can feed u enough or make u happy... So think twice.

I miss Kuantan.

Awwww

2011-10-09T00:11:00.002+08:00

Yea right I abandoned my blog for some days. Apologize for that. I am doing extremely fine these days. Everything was fine but I wasn't satisfy enough I guess. Maybe of the perfectionist in me but I know I'm not. More songs in my head these days. Haha at least I found out an awesome software to download songs. Kinda outdated I know. Lol.

So I guess the days for me to slack is getting less. Mock exam is in November and the exam will be in January. Shooooooot. Seriously is so awwwwwww because got to start studying soon. My concentration level in class is always low. So that means I need to put in more effort ><. Ish. But nvm. Is even horrible that people are trying to aim for full marks. Hmmm.... That's a challenge I guess.

Anyway still enjoying my life. Not much to worry about.

Fatt - awesome days ahead.

YES 11 rocks

2011-09-25T23:15:00.000+08:00

0920

2011-09-20T21:37:00.003+08:00

So i m typing this with my laptop. and press the PUBLISH button with my iphone. I have no idea why but this freaking button on laptop just doesnt work =.=

Alright I am damn freaking out in class these days. My concentration sucks I hope I remember what teachers taught. Woots. I wanna join clubs but.... When I think of all the past year questions then I think twice again. This aint Kuantan no more. 10 minutes is considered freaking near. by taking highway. If you are unlucky. Get stuck in the traffic then die lah. So. I have no idea but I just wanna keep myself active. Thanks to YES Alumni Malaysia that have something for me to do. ahkax. Love the volunteerism. Seriously gotta get much fun and learn from all the works.

Aww. seriously I need to widen my social scope. It seems so limited.

I want moreeee things to do.

Got some opportunity. Try to not let it go. But do I really like that? hmm.

I wanna see how my future will be. I dont wanna regret.

Fatt - dilemma. hate this.

wed-sun

2011-09-18T20:43:00.005+08:00

Mooncake festival! monday. went back to kampung at night just to send some mooncakes and have dinner with grandma :). wooh we are good kids. haha. though it was real tiring though.

Awesome days with family and friends. LOL. This week was fun. Enjoying my days seriously although it was really tiring and exhausted. Let see. Since wed friends came from Johor and Langkawi and sleepover at my place. Thursday was the launching of Field Trip USA year 2 at redbox pavillion. cool right? Alright I was not selected to be in the show because but I am cool enough. Support my friendsssss weh! That show was kinda awesome as I had just watched the first episode during the launching. Kinda jealous with their amazing life in the state but I understand that all of us will get different experiences. since dunno when next week or next next week? Wed 930pm at 8tv ~~~ First episode was by kuantanese!

Malaysian Day was somehow hectic. slept at 3am on the night before caused me to have real hard day. Driving all the way to Bukit Antarabangsa to look for YES senior's house and yea. I did eat with hand since all of them are eating with hand. haha what an amazing experience. Real malaysian day. then rush to batu caves for another friend's open house. and.... send friend to KL sentral. back home to meet up with parents and out for dinner again. LOL. I was really tore out that day. Enjoying family hours after that :)

Back to kampung on Saturday for cousin's wedding after taking sis's graduation picture and lunch and some shopping at pavillion. I have no idea why I been to mid valley and pavillion so many times since I came but yea these two places are freaking near to my house. Dinner was another family gathering. Kinda awkward to meet back those long-lost cousins. I think I have not meet them since standard 5. walao. LOL

of course. back to KL today and yea. I have no mood for tomorrow's class.

Have not been typing all my "schedule" on blog after so long. haha

fatt - you're beautiful no matter what they said.

911

2011-09-12T01:56:00.003+08:00

Choose to update this at this late moment is because when 10 years back. This is the time that the news had spreaded throughout the world. The incident that changed the united states and the world. It changed the views of people towards life, politics, religion and races. It brought the world together and it started a lot of cries and wars. Hell ya. Remember the documentary that I watched? Its deep in my mind. I saw some of the 911 pictures and seriously. I can still feel the fear and the worries of them right now. The scenes are deep and I couldn't take it off. It's too shocking and it's too unbelievable. Seriously it's just like watching a transformer movie or what. But that's real life. One of the scenes that I never forget was one guy was waving his clothes/flag up the building. But he had no idea that the whole building just topple by the next second ><. such pathetic right? No last words for the person they love.

Anyway my deepest condolences to the Americans and the global citizens for their great lost.
Hope for a better world tomorrow.
Rest in peace for all victims of 911 and brave rescuers.

Nobody is going to forget this.

Fatt - I dunno why but I felt so much.

Too sleepy in class. Lol

2011-09-09T06:49:00.000+08:00

Back!

2011-09-03T14:42:00.000+08:00

Opps

2011-08-23T21:53:00.002+08:00

Alright I know my blog is so dead now. Ahakx just not in mood to write. No idea why. It's second week of my holiday. Yea u may feel weird whats wrong with this sem break as I just started my class. It's included raya break ><. Some achievement these days. My Chopin étude no5 is almost done :). Finally after a week of practise. Cool huh. Of course I am not up to the speed yet. Basically life without music sucks. Either pop or classical. Both are essential for my life I guess. I am glad there's one in KL. If not..... There'll be no place for me to express myself or to release my stress.

Met up with friends who are in Kuantan this days. Some people change. Some do not. Form6 life seems to have so much fun. But too bad te education system is too hectic and it's sucks. If not form 6 gonna be my choice instead of a levels. Anyway I still love my classmates now. Although we are a small group but hehe we still have much fun and jokes all around. I am the only non-KL people. Nop there's one more Korean but he has been living in KL for 6 years =.=.

Sometimes I really wonder how's future gonna be. Look at all the degree holder now. 3000 salary per month is counted as normal. Some even get lower. How to live with this salary?! Everything is so high. Petrol, loan for car, rent?! An eat?! Entertainment?! Money for family?! Gosh. Seriously I can't imagine that. But people can even live with a monthly pay which under 1000. Hmm it's time to really think. What's on for future?! Shit. I dont even know what I want to major in ><.

I really admire those who go accordingly to their passion and interest. I can't. I am too reality. I don't see future in my passion and I don't see future in my interest. I don't have the guts. I dont see that's gonna make me a man. Sometimes I wonder if I don't think this much. I could have done a lot a lot more of things. I just don't want to regret in the future.

I wish upon the stars. For the dream of mine.
Let the diamonds shine and the gold blink :)

I wanna be a trillionaire. Lol.

Fatt - dreams.

Masterpiece

2011-08-07T10:51:00.002+08:00

Love going back to grandma's house because there I could really feel the warmth of family apart from Kuantan. People were sitting chit chatting and we who had grew up tried to learn cooking from grandma. Lol. It's fun when my cousin and I were like damn jakun bout that. Haha.

Come to me girl.

Fatt

2011-08-05T13:24:00.002+08:00

Figuring a pathway for future. A plan for my life. Until the moment I meet you. It will be our life.

Ineedsomesleep

2011-08-04T22:06:00.001+08:00

Picture taken before sleep. Lol.

Damn sleepy everyday every class I have no idea why. Tried to sleep at 9 something yesterday and I failed ><. Terrible.

Am broke these days after buying shade and paying all the books. Less Hang out ><.

Everything's good right now. New friends. New style of life. Am missing high school life =x

Fatt - can't wait.

It's cool

2011-07-31T23:25:00.001+08:00

I want muscles.

Obsessed with guitar

2011-07-31T00:22:00.000+08:00

I aint specky

2011-07-20T21:21:00.005+08:00

webcam picture took in my new room. LOL.
I swear I gonna change the pink bedsheet after I buy a blue one.

Life has been good lately. Classes are so far so good. The worst Physics has not come yet. But from all the comments from my classmates ah thats the killer subject =x. I hope not for me lah. No idea. tomorrow first class. I was wondering between Phy and account before this and at last I took Phy. what a brave act I told myself. LOL. Lecturer call our group "rare combination" because there are so few people who take both science and arts together =.=. I have really small group in most of my classes. haha. Something really need to pick up lah since I enter late. But everything seems on the track now. Wanna score 4A* lah. thats damn hard. Straight A's also can lah. lol.

I caught myself hard to concentrate in class seriously. No idea. Just not used to it yet. Keep went blank and I was like WTF? Life in KL is like so boring lah. have to get up early and go out earlier to prevent traffic jam. Especially the route to my school thats the hassle. I mean like after 7am something. So 8am class and I try to get out from house before 7 everyday. Dang =.=. City life. I miss Kuantan life. My room lah. haha I still love my bed. no idea. Hope can ask dad to bring my dad here. that will be cool.

Alright enough of stories. All I really want for this one and a half year is a peace, safe and hardworking life. And of course lah something shine and decide what to major in for the future. If not I really headache dy =.=.

Tried to spend less. I was spending like I kena toto

Fuck thats aint your business.

Hey people. Again join us this weekend for MUSICTHON !!!
Anytime you want. go BERJAYA MEGAMALL, KUANTAN !!!
23rd and 24th July.
Highlights 23rd 11pm-1am and 24th Closing ceremony 5pm I think.
SEE you guys there !!!

Fatt - YES meeting on friday and oh ya MUSICTHON!

Bam

2011-07-18T07:20:00.001+08:00

One of the best pictures in front of Capitol hill!

How's it going guys?! It's been long since I am back. Third week dy. And I am so ready for another chapter of life. I have had enough rest (act). Now it's time to back to the exam system again. Aih ><. Fyi I am doing a-levels at HELP. My sister said that's a bad choice because the traffic is bad over some roads that I must travel everyday. But I don't care. There are more parking spaces I guess and I think thats quite a good school. I am looking forward for tomorrow. Dang. I hope it will not be USA part 2 =x. Am driving down to KL later and there starts my life there officially. Gosh. I gonna miss Kuantan. And stupid lynas which ruin the whole thing.

The only thing I am clear about is the importance of my future.

I just can't understand. And I never understand.

I want the simplest of everything. That shouldn't be in my concerns.

Join us on musicthon. 23rd and 24th July at Megamall, Kuantan. Highlights are 23rd 11pm- 24th 1am. Closing ceremony on 24th 5 or 6 I guess. Witness the new malaysia's record!!!

Fatt - scoring 4A's for the next three important examinations =)

Bang

2011-07-13T17:07:00.002+08:00

Days were so kind to me since I reached Kuantan. Friends and foods. Everything was awesome. I am leaving tomorrow. Hell ya have to pack again ><. No longer form 6 for me. A-levels. I am still deciding which school to go to. Haha. The only thing I really concern about is parking. Lol. Anyway I am gonna come back and forth KL Kuantan these two weeks for musicthon. And yea. Make 23 24 July free. Go to megamall for a walk. Midnight session will be the highlight. 11pm to 1am on 23rd. Serious u have to witness this new malaysia's record!!! =)

I have nothing much to tell. Wanna sleep ><.

Fatt - muah!

Sleep my bed tonight

2011-07-08T16:15:00.001+08:00

Hi people. Sorry for the late update. Was enjoying every single moments with YES peeps and planning for future studies.

I guess everything went well these days. The lifestyle and everything. I didn't get Americanize much. No accent. I have damn a lot of LAH. Always. Hmm.... Besides the hugging part. So used to hug and now see ppl just wave wave shake shake hands ><. seriously I think hugging is a better way to greet ppl. Lol.

Post orientation camp was a blast. Enjoy with YES ppl so much and I already miss them on that night we left the camp. The feeling at home was weird. Everything is back. The American dream has ended. Time to back to reality. To plan for future and to plan for life. Everything came at one shot and I didn't even get a chance to rest =x. But then I know I have to. A level has started and I need more information and I need to choose so that I won't regret.

Met few friends back in KL last few days. I am really proud of myself for driving all the way to setapak and pj. I didn't drive on the wrong lane. Haha. I did actually. I turned to the wrong lane when I was out from the junction. Luckily I realized it before any car crash into me. What an adventure?! Lol. It seems to be much more better now. Driving in kl is really cool. Miss one junction then u gotta spend more than 10 minutes to get back to the road. Dang. Looking for Andy's was the hardest. Haha. I lost for 20 minutes I guess?! But nvm that made me know a few more roads which are connected.

Seriously I am adjusting back real well. I was so not used to the phone ringing and message alert few days back... Too long didn't use phone. Dang. Everything was great and I am getting normal to all the foods. There's like no special excitement when I see roti canai or what. Haha.

It's just so hard to describe the feeling being back.

How I wish I have my own car still. Lol

I don't wanna make a wrong choice this time =x.

Some ppl said I didn't look different and some ppl said I am buffer and chubbier =.=

Fatt- on the way to Kuantan!

Open a bit lah.

2011-06-30T12:39:00.001+08:00

I was so pumped hen I saw the frat Malaysian that I have not seen in a long long time at Atlanta airport. Omgosh. She is a kuantanese somemore. Just can't describe the feelings. Lol.

They said I am so much talkative than before. And Face chubby a bit. A bit only. Haha. Asshole. We were hugging each other so tight when we met at the hotel lobby. Just couldnt get enough hugs. Lol. The whole lobby was so so so loud because not only Malaysians did that. Basically everybody shouted and hugged each other. Imagine there were like 560 of us. Hahaha. Gosh! Everyone just got really excited!

Okay my mood never came down for even 1 second. I was in hyper active mood. Like really couldnt stop moving. Something really funny is when other countries' people meet back their people, they speak their language. Malaysians meet malaysian speak English. Lol. I didn't want to speak anymore BM because whatever I said sounded so funny to them and I got tease so bad on my weird accent of BM. WTF?! Lol.

Something really inspiring is the talk from one of the Imam. Is something like preacher. Of course is for Muslims. Omgosh. His talk was basically a lot about Muslims and the world and he pointed a lot of thing from al-Quran. But what the differences were the point of view was so much different. It was so much open. Even myself who live in a Muslim country got such a culture shock. The way he answered all the questions was so great. I love that seriously. He pointed out a lot of points that we didn't think of. Seriously Malaysians have to be more open in religions and races. We often put religion and race together. There's just no understanding because everything is preset in mind. There are so many people who are racist. There are so many people who are not willing to understand. There are so many people who stereotype. There are so many people who are damn freaking closed-minded. I am pointing the whole Malaysians. Like who in the world say that Christians can't enter a temple? Buddhist can't enter a mosque? Those are bullshit. Its so important to learn and understand. Its so important to see. The pastor here at the church that I went to practice buddhist meditation himself. They visited Buddhist association and temple in the other town. They included some facts and principle of Buddhism in their sermon. They are willing to point out the common part of other religion and theirs. To tell people about what they have learned or what them as Christians should practice to let themselves become better. Why not we don't normally have these?! Most of the people are so individually closely tie to their religion and unwilling to understand others' religion because they think they are better. Okay that's understandable but my point is understanding is really important. It's nothing wrong to attend somebody else religious activities to visit somebody religious places as long as u respect. From my point of view, everyone is doing the same thing. We are worshiping god. It's just the method of worshiping is different. We should have strong faith in ourselves in what we believe....

Alright u guys may not agree with me but that's my point of view.

Ahakx gonna enjoy the last few days of mine here!!!!

Omgosh gonna meet the senator of Indiana state tomorrow. He is the founder of YES programme. Damn nervous =x.

Fatt - exchange and understanding.

Last update from Wadesville, Indiana

2011-06-28T10:21:00.000+08:00

Just so I am ready. Hope these are underweight. My carry on weighed about 40 pounds. Lol.

Fatt - gotta have some fun!

I am coming home

2011-06-27T20:26:00.000+08:00

It's time for everything to be wrapped up. Luggages are ready. Drawers are empty. Flight tickets are ready. What's left hanging is the pair of clothes that I will wear tomorrow. Time flies. It's been six months.

How those days when I was struggling myself filling up forms and going to interview anxiously. I kicked it in that half hour interview. But then the emotional and sentimental period of mine wouldn't help in the selection camp. I considered myself as lucky. I was given the opportunity of many would dream of. Yet I was in dilemma because of some real silly reasons.

Days passed and I was into my life here. Soon I will leave all these and back to the life that belongs to me. Just like those days which I left everything and came here. I never know what's up next. Everything back home may be fresh for me. The feeling of going home is just like the feeling of coming to state. I do not dare to expect anything or think much to avoid disappointment. Yet I am trying to peek what's there above the water. Trying to grab some air just to feel more comfortable.

It's true that all these made me changed. I don't know how much these affected me but I know it had. My point of view towards things are different now. I see things like I never see before and I judge things like I never did. I read one of YES buddy's post and I agreed with her. The hardest thing being an exchange student is balancing the two worlds you live in. Sometimes I really think that I belong to here because I am so used to it. I am so used to all the restrictions of my host family gave and all the lifestyle here. I am cool enough to carry out all the laundry and dishes for the whole family. I learned to accept whatever is given and appreciate them.

How will people judge me when I am back? Will them understand things that I put as priority now? Will i keep in touch with my buddies here? And in return, will I agree with them like I agreed with them?

I never know what's up next. But I am ready for that. I am ready to let go whatever that should be left behind. I am ready to face my real life. I am ready for all the inevitable.

I am coming home.

Fatt - DC four days then home.

Testing 123

2011-06-27T11:49:00.000+08:00

Relay For Life

2011-06-26T21:14:00.001+08:00

Support the cancer survivors and honor those whose life taken by cancer.

Last Sunday for church ><

Fatt - way to say goodbye.

Ready or not? ><

2011-06-25T02:41:00.001+08:00

I am gonna miss them a lot!

Went to the amusement park in Cincinnati, Ohio yesterday. Dang. It was the best that I went so far. And it's freaking cheap. Imagine both dry and wet park for 25 USD! Of course we got the special offer. Woohoo. Roller coasters every where. And the roller coaster which i rode it by lying down was just so freaking amazing. It's nothing like roller coaster in genting =x. Haha I spent like only an hour in the water park and back to the dry park for roller coaster again! Whee....

Just gonna wrap up all my things soon. Got one luggage packed. Gonna buy another luggage later =x. Can't believe this. Left 3 more days exclude today and bye posey county ><. when will I be back again? No idea.

Just wonder will I meet them again?!

I am ready for home. Not ready to leave ><.

Fatt - I am gonna miss here =)

Changes

2011-06-22T11:28:00.001+08:00

6 months. Sounds long. It's pretty short actually. Everything was like yesterday. Yet it seems so far away. I wonder how much changes we have in this period of time. I am excited yet anxious to meet my family and my friends. How will they change? Will I still be a part of them? Or how much I change? I was just thinking. How much changes happened these years.

I remember when we were in elementary school. Standard 5 and 6 I think. Seong Yee was so quiet. Yet there were something which linked us together. We were interested in archaeology. We read through those books about world's seven wonders and bla bla bla together. Hahaha. And I was like "I'm gonna be archaeologist when I grow up". But since form 1 I did not have that ambition in my mind anymore. So did Seong Yee maybe? Ahakx. Look at him now. Once he was so quiet and now??? Hahaha. Thats just one of the examples. See those changes in years. What are the changes in months?!

I know I view things differently now. There are something which I realize I can live without and there are things that I realize I don't need to care about. And of course, I find things that I should care more in my life.

Sometimes we are just stubborn because we can't see. It's just important to see more. To leave behind something you have temporary. To meet more people. You will realize how small how competitive the world is. There's no time to be emotional for days. Life's too short for that.

I am to live right and do right everyday. It just seems that it went well =)

I Sing non stop these days. Haha. Country music rocksss!

Cincinnati tomorrow!!! Last week with host family here. This week definitely pass fast =x

Korean boy Min went home this morning. I am by myself now ><.

Fatt - one week till DC to meet the crazy gang!

It's 20 June!

2011-06-21T06:26:00.001+08:00

This frozen hot chocolate is real Nice!!!

I had homesick all of sudden today. I just wanna be home. Though I am close to home and the days are countable now... No idea how this came but err it just happened.

I was chilling in house today after so many days. Wrapped all breakable stuffs with bubble wrap and packed my stuffs up. What I left is waiting for another luggage to put my things in. Tell u what. I am broke. After the shopping on Saturday. All I left in my wallet is 5 dollars. Haha. Need some cash out from the bank =x

Watched "we are Marshall" today. I have no idea whether I tell u guys about this movie before or not. This is my second time watching this and I watched it again today because Korean boy was watching it. Still. It's inspiring and touching. It's a movie based on a true story of the football team of Marshall university in west Virginia. It's sad and it's awesome =x.

I just can't wait for home =)

My red skin is turning tan. Haha.

I am gonna by myself for the next whole week.

Fatt - clock ticked, time did not pass.

Flooooooorida Bye

2011-06-19T14:54:00.001+08:00

Time flies. 13 days to Malaysia and 9 days to DC. This week been great. Was down to Panama City Beach in Florida. Dang it was pretty. The miles of white sand beach to my left and right was just awesome. We lived on the 23rd floor and the view was just amazing. Sun tanning was a blast. But sunburn was no fun. I hardly shower with hot water now as it hurt. I wonder how long will it take to recover? White butt and red back! How weird. Lol. 5 days just passed. Dang so fast! I wish I could stay for few more days. Lol. The 12 hours drive to and from Louisville was the least enjoyable part ><.

Created a new record. Spent the most in half an hour =x. Alright. Not for me. Mostly. Lol. But branded stuffs here just cheap. Couldn't stop buying when u realize how cheap they are compare to Malaysia. I wonder was it lucky or too bad that I don't have credit card huh? I would grab pair of Oakley, more jeans and backpack for myself, if I have enough money at that moment. Too bad I didn't =.=.

I am anti-soda people these days. No idea why. It just don't seems to please me. I was before I came to US. But since everyone around me love it so much and I was adapted into it. But lately, I got lemonade at McD, I bought apple juice grape juice while people bought cokes. Lol. I have no idea. It's just so weird =x.

What I want in the future is house by the beach and have my own boat. Work hard for myself =).

I realize that how much things that I need not to care or worry about because I have such great parents who give me full supports all the time. Nothing will be luckier than living in a family like this =).

I watched some taiwan TV show that i watched those days on iPhone few days back and I realized I was really not into it anymore... ><. I thought it was terrible =x.

I am glad that I am firm in my faith.

9 more days. I should really appreciate these days....

Happy Father's Day to my dad!
And all great dad on earth!

We really need to see more to realize and understand more.

Sometimes I just don't fucking care how people think or feel. Because I don't think there's a need to care too much to burden yourself. Life is simple and easy. It's all depends how you manage it and how busybody you are. Care your own business and live your life. Days will be so much happier and enjoyable. It's not selfish. Sometimes people just don't need your worries and nags.

Fatt - I wish I can do more.

Florida

2011-06-18T10:51:00.001+08:00

More updates tomorrow =).

Fatt - sunburn all the way! Haha.

19

2011-06-13T11:26:00.002+08:00

If you are waiting for big things to come to you, you must have been waited forever. One of the favorite lines of mine.

Tzyy and Khangjun. I did the tag dy lah =.=. Lol. Seriously babe. 19 days more till you can text my phone. Haha. Can't wait huh? Yea. The fun gonna begin tomorrow evening. And last till July 1st hopefully. What I really hope is I have enough souvenirs to bring home. Ahakx. I seriously bought too many shirts as souvenir. It occupy so much space =x.

I have been so lazy these days. No books no nothing. All I did was packing and watching TV. Gosh. There must have something better to do. Being a NBA fan at house. Haha. There's something pity bout me. I am always the alone one. Those days during Superbowl final. Both Korean boy and my host mum support steelers, I am the only one who jump up when packers had their touchdown. Lol. And now. Both of them like mavericks, I am the only one again who support heat. So today is their turn to clap hands. Awwww. Alright packers won that day and mavericks won today =.=. is a sad case that Miami can't hit that.

Americans are real huggy. Lol.

I had Chinese-sushi-Korean buffet today. The dumpling soup tasted exactly the same =). Can't wait for food back home!

I am so pumped!!!

Fatt - I wish we have some sport fever in Malaysia.

tag by non other than Raney tan

2011-06-11T12:11:00.001+08:00

Its been ages since last tag. Lol

NAME : Teng Fatt

AGE : 18

BIRTH DATE : 7 Feb 93

PRESENT ADDRESS : Indiana!

Rules : Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR :

1. Last Beverage = water

2. Last Phone Call = Viber call? Mummy. Phone call. Was like errrrr my LC.

3. Last Text Message = some random stuff =.=

4. Last Song you listened to = bless the broken road by rascal flatts.

5. Last Time you cried = Errr. Not an exact date that I remember.

HAVE YOU EVER :

6. Dated someone Twice = No

7. Been Cheated on = Yes?

8. Kissed someone & regretted it = No or maybe

9. Lost someone special = Yes

10. Been Depressed = Yes

11. Been Drunk and Threw up = No imma good boy.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS :

12. Black

13. Blue

14. No idea.

HAVE YOU :

15. Made a New Friend = Tons of them

16. Fallen out of love = Yes

17. Laughed until you cried = Lol

18. Met Someone who Changed you = Exactly

19. Found out who your true friends were = not really?

20. Found out someone was talking about you = yup

21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = Yes

GENERAL :

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = 1/8 maybe? Lol

23. Do you love all your friends = NO

24. Do you have any pets = no but I love to have one.

25. Do you want to change your name = My name is funky enough.

26. What did you do for your last birthday = went to sch =x

27. What time did you wake up today? = 820am central time

28. What were you doing at midnight last night = slept

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for. = The moment I eat curry mee

30. Last time you saw your Father = Two months ago on skype. Real person will be like 5 months ago ><

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = I wish I have done more sports during those school years

32. What are you listening to right now = the sound of air conditioner ><.

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? = No. I hate to have Tom in my phone =.=

34. What's getting on your nerves right now = Nothing

37. Nickname = I can't remember. Tons of them.

38. Relationship Status = Single, available (give me a call). * I am just kidding. Unavailable

39. Zodiac sign = Aquarius

40. He or She = WTF is this fact?

41. Elementary School = SRJKC Pei Chai

42. High school = Air Putih. Sabs soon?

43. College = somewhere cool =)

44. Hair colour = Black

45. Long or short hair = short

46. Height = no idea. I am a short guy

47. Do you have a crush on someone? = Yes

48. What do you like about yourself? = I love myself.

49. Piercings = No

50. Tattoos = When I get buff enough? =x

51. Right or lefty= Righty

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery = Never. I don't want any.

53. First piercing = It's cool to get one but I have no desire for one yet

54. First best friend = I don't remember =x

55. First sport you joined = track! I ran hurdle and I won 2nd. Proud of myself.

56. First vacation = Probably KL. That was when I couldn't walk yet =.=

58. First pair of sneakers = who the hell remember this =x

RIGHT NOW :

59. Eating = No

60. Drinking = No

61. I'm about to = Check on twitter and sleep

62. Listening to = colder weather by zac brown

63. Waiting for = 12am and sleep

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids? = 100%. love kids!

65. Get Married? = If she's the right one

66. Career ? = Money is all I want.

WHICH IS BETTER IN A GUY/GIRL : I choose to not answer this whole section because I don't really know or understand what it is or I pretend not to =x

67. Lips or eyes =

68. Hugs or kisses=

69. Shorter or taller =

70. Older or Younger =

71. Romantic or spontaneous =

72. Nice stomach or nice arms =

73. Sensitive or loud =

74. Hook-up or relationship =

75. Trouble maker or hesitant =

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger = No

77. Drank hard liquor = No

78. Lost glasses/contacts = I don't wear them

79. Sex on first date = No

80. Broke someone's heart = Yea. I am so sorry =x

82. Been arrested = No

83. Turned someone down = Yes

85. Fallen for a friend = Yes

86. Found yourself talking in your sleep = Nop

DO YOU BELIEVE IN :

87. Miracles = Used to. Depends on what it is

88. Love at first sight = No. That's bullshit theory.

89. Heaven = Yes, I am going after 80 years. Lol

90. Santa Claus = I am not dumb.

91. Kiss on the first date = Kisses are nothing. It's greeting. It's cares. It's sweet. It's love. It's lies. Who cares what's the one on first date is?

92. Angels = Cupid? No. Others maybe.

Bang

2011-06-10T11:09:00.001+08:00

It's the fourth day I stay in house. Yet I am getting used to it. It's a little boring somehow. But I always find myself something to do. So the time pass faster. Maybe I should really think about these times. Because the plans coming up next two weeks gonna keep me busy. Sometimes I really hope that I can be placed in some active chapters which organized bunch of events. But I am glad enough to be here. =). I like this community seriously. And I love my friends here. Hehehe.

I packed most of my stuffs up today. My big luggage is now full. But it's only 41.6lbs? I hope the weighing machine is accurate. So i can put more things in. But I still have more stuffs. Hmm. Interesting. Gonna buy a new luggage. Awwww. The go home mood is on now. Seriously. Sometimes I mix up Home and here. It's been such a long time. I am so used to what I restricted to or what. I dunno how's everybody change. And I dunno how myself change. Nobody tell me yet =x. I shocked myself today when I was counting my money and t shirts. I counted in English =x. Lol. Guess what. My host parents who have hosted about 50 students before told me I set a new record. Nobody buy so many souvenirs before and nobody buy so many t shirts before. Haha. It's crazy =x. I know. About 50 t shirts to give out. Lol. What I really hope is I get to find a lot of key chains and get to go to the America! shop in DC. Ahakx. I like that shop but too bad I bought too little that time ><.

I can't wait. 19 days to DC babe. Are you ready? Yet I can't wait for the plans next two weeks. Haha. I am gonna be tanned like seriously. Hopefully not too bad =x. Friends were asking to hang out next week but we couldn't find a good day =.=. they should ask me this week lah. Ah. One thing. I am speaking with my Malaysian accent still I guess. I didn't get affected much by American accent. Maybe. Besides all the T T T sound. Seriously it's so hard to pronoun "water" in the old way. It sounds like "volt-ter" when I tried.

Bang bang. Tweet tweet. I dare not to Facebook too much because I don't want the secret that I have kept so long fail now. It's so close to back. Hehe.

Favorite Tv show : the voice, america's got talent, extreme makeover, pawn star, American pickers, shark tank!

Sports banquet last night =).

I am so addicted to NBA ball games! Go heat!

Fatt - new harmony tour tomorrow!

Makeover

2011-06-09T11:23:00.001+08:00

One of my favorite show here. It may be dramatic a bit because it's gonna show on TV. But. All the people they helping are true. They have true stories at their back pockets. And it's incredible that they actually build all the houses in one week time. Cool huh =)

Fatt - I gonna miss the school =x

I am coming home =)

2011-06-07T23:04:00.002+08:00

Bing bang boom. It's three weeks to DC. I am pumped. The only thing I worry about is the luggage. Souvenirs. See lah. Haha. I wonder why they dont have key chains like we have in Malaysia like whole bunch for ten dollars or what =x. I have really no idea what's going to happen this week. There's no plan. There's a sports banquet on wednesday. Gonna meet back most of my friends. =) Too bad my lunch table mates will not be there =x. Woohoo and there are plans for next two weeks!!! That will be fun!

Oh I miss them girls dy. I can stay home all day with them seriously. Lol. Sometimes its really fun to play with little kids. I adore their innocence which u can find no where else. I wish I can have those innocence still. Its so easy to laugh out loud. And it's so easy to cry out loud. Haha. It's so touched that when her dad ask her
"what are you going to do when they boys back?"
"I am going to miss them."
Alright I am going to meet them next week still. For the last time I guess =x. But we gotta have some fun again.

I sleep so much nowadays. Nothing to do maybe. So I am just chilling to look for stuffs to do. Haha. I have not write my journal for about a week. Have to pick it up tomorrow maybe? Lol. Just try to let myself busy and do something =x. I realize there are so many movie for me to watch when I get back later. Bunch of nice movie going on huh? Lol. Time to catch up.

I have so much money left to spend for the last three weeks. Lol.

It's gonna be a lazy week in house =x. I am just not in mood to read. Not even one book done yet ><.

Seriously I mean it when I tell you.

I have not smile to the screen myself for so long.

Fatt - I am still worry =x

testing 456

2011-06-04T03:39:00.001+08:00

A blogger

2011-06-03T11:08:00.000+08:00

I am such an active blogger. I blog so much and I wonder what's the limit for my total post? There were so many people who tried to have blog but they couldn't keep up with it, or they update like only once every few months. Alright. People are too busy and they have no 10 minutes to write. Lol I am being sarcastic and hopefully not offensive babe. ANDY YOU SUCKS!!! Haha I hope u read this. It's the second blog and it is so dead. Bang bang. I don't know why I blog so much but I do. Even those days when my life was busy like hell and I was still blogging. Well for your information, I ain't a stalker. Only for Mel's blog that I followed, I read it when she has update. Other than that, wait for the mood to come. Haha. (Mel you should feel proud. Lol). There are so many dead blog that I have no idea to keep it or not =.=.

Alright I may be a terrible blogger because there's no pictures, there's grammatical errors, there's cuss words and I don't have much fancy stuffs to share about =x. I downloaded something to upload pics but I haven't try it yet. Let me figure out whether it works or not. It may be good news or bad news. And they might be too much emotions for some of it. I apologize babe. I read back some of my posts and I was like WTF was this kid thinking that time? Oh yea people grow and change. Perhaps 100 days from now I read back this post and I will be like what's wrong with me? Lol. We never know. It's just interesting to look back what you were. It's cool though. Haha.

Went for go kart today and it was real cool. I was thinking about my drive when I get back later. Haha should be an awkward one. I don't think I will drive for the first few days because the drive way is different u see. Lol. It takes some time to change it back I guess. Woots. Anyway down in Louisville again and definitely I will miss the two little girls when I get back. Haha. They are so cute. Gosh. Though I found some kids were real annoying sometimes. But not them. Lol.

Keychains are so high here. But I bought a lot =x. Couldn't bring more t shirt home. Lol.

Bang NBA finals. Miami go go go!!!

Fatt - that was a beautiful nightmare =/

It's June babe

2011-06-02T11:47:00.002+08:00

Things come and go. Like the breeze, they leave before you feel the coolness. But some breeze chisel your heart with its impact. It may not use the name of 'breeze' anymore because of its strength. Being contradiction is not an aberration, things are view from different perspectives, either its flatter one side, prettier another side, taller at other side. We often judge by the first few things we get contact with, that gives us the first impression and it occupies big part of our thoughts. When we move around and change our position, we view from the other side of the object, some of us change our mind. Some don't, because they don't see it differently or they are stubborn enough. Yea. Things are abstruse. Thoughts are complicated. But life is bereft without those. Something stay simple. Happiness.

I had awesome dinner today. Host dad grilled steak out at the porch for about two hours. He grilled it real slow with low fire. And it tasted just perfectly well. Foods are like one of the most important things in the world. Good foods enlighten your day, cheer your day. Cool huh. And that made my day =).

I dont read much these days. But watch tv and movie a lot. Haha.

Louisville tomorrow again. Ahakz.

3.975 for my GPA here. Woohoo! I have good grades =)

Dang. I wish I can get it =).

Fatt - let's have some fun!

31/5

2011-06-01T12:39:00.003+08:00

I randomly posted something on twitter and I got teased. It's been a long time since the last time I heard tease about that. Yea people were laughing their ass off about how stupid I was and how innocent I was for believing in tales. In all the stories they knew, I stuck my face to a cold ass that had been frozen for a long time. My face was froze but I wouldn't want to leave it alone. I was too innocent myself. I was hypnotized by words. Mesmerized by sights and feels. I wouldn't believe nobody but those words. Because I trust. I had faith in us. That were thoughts of an underaged boy you see. I learned. Remember. I ain't cursing nor praising because there's no needy for those.. I don't feel contrite about it because I wouldn't deny that might be one of the best days I had. At least for myself. I shall not cry no more for the past because I learned not to. Life is not that limited. I saw a lot these months. And there are far more than that.

Shut up if you don't know what's behind the scene.
I ain't being a boor.

One of the worst thing in life is you wanna talk but u can't find nobody.

I am still a bad ass as I was. I may have some changes in personality but I believe those changes make me a better person. Maybe not for u guys but that don't matter me. I live for nobody. For myself.

花自飘零水自流，一种相思，单处闲愁。

Fatt - second post for emotions.

31/5

2011-06-01T11:07:00.000+08:00

Hi people. Wifi still love me. Lol. I am so pumped! Did nothing today but sat at home all day. Host parents were working. The Korea boy is going to help in some basketball stuffs in school tomorrow. How cool? Too bad I sucks in basketball. Ahakx. Sometimes I wish I could have register for the summer government class in school but with that I couldn't go anywhere this whole freaking month =x. Lol.

Watched Benjamin Button today. It's a good movie I think. But it's a bit too long. 2 hours 40 minutes? Gosh. I couldn't sit still. But the movie was really meaningful. Born old and die young. What a life?! I do really learn something from the movie. Woots. I think I am kind of weird guy. Easy to get inspired. Easy to get emotions. No idea.

Countdown begin babe! Can't wait to go back. All the foods. Oh man =).

Watch america's got talent, the voice and NBA finals right now. The hours at night always pass faster because there are more shows to watch. Lol. Bang bang.

Tried to play sudoku. I wasn't good in that. Not yet ><. Ahakx.

There's always a spot for someone special. Although I mean no one to her. I miss you ♥

There are things that never last. But something will last.

Fatt - aww.

29/5

2011-05-30T09:05:00.003+08:00

The weather burn my ass off today. Damn freaking hot lah! And the hotel is damn freaking cold. Ahakx. Did nothing much besides helped host parents with their lake house stuffs ><. I am being a country boy. Lol. What a weird one.

Oh I have certainly nothing much to say =x.

Woots. Not now. Nothing cross my mind. Lol.

Let's hope wifi is back when I back tomorrow! =).

Fatt-I am pumped!

28/5

2011-05-29T11:20:00.000+08:00

The storm hit Wednesday and the power went off and came back. About half an hour. But the poor neighbor wasn't that lucky. The transformer burnt I guess. They had no electric for two days already and still using the generator of their own. They may get that fix next week? Who knows?! So there was no wifi for me ><. I hope the router didn't burn down and hopefully it back to usual when they get their electric back.

I have so little to do. Went to the county courthouse Wednesday and learned quite a lot of things. It's really cool though. I felt blithe there I dunno why. Just random and weird. Hahaha!

Graduation last night. Went to school as that was my last playing with the concert band and playing on the tenor saxophone. Woots ><. Sometimes when you don't think about those "last time" things you won't feel sad. But it crossed my mind quite a bit these days. There are so many people that it may be just the last time I see them meet them and talk to them. How many of us will actually keep in touch after I back?! Hmm. When life is different everything is gonna be different =x. See. Aihx. I know I am quite a sentimental guy but maybe because of that I learn to appreciate? Okay back to graduation. Yup is a big thing over here. My host mum said high school graduation is like more important than college graduation. lol. Weird huh. Yea it's a nice and important event for them. That's just cool. We don't even have graduation over there do we?! Lol. I hope we do somehow. It's a meaningful day! Too bad I am a junior here. I saw some other friends in another states join graduation too. That must be an unforgettable yet joyful experience. Woohoo... But being a spectator is great enough.

Down in Kentucky now!

I should bring my camera on Tuesday ><.

Fatt - I need Internet for the last month!

22/5

2011-05-22T20:24:00.003+08:00

I woke up at 630 this morning. Woots what an early hour for a Sunday? I am used to it. Waking up early every single day even though I have nothing much to do. School is about to end. Tuesday is the last day and friday is the graduation. And there go school life in the states. Bye bye! I didn't bring my camera to school because it's so big and I don't want that much attention. Lol. But we can't use phone at school though ><. ah. 40 days more. Can't wait. What I am gonna do is buy buy and buy. Seriously spend dang a lot. Hahaha.

I am pretty sure people out there can't wait for their souvenirs. And to girl girl especially. I dunno what to buy ><. and I can't find anything yet. Lol. Dont expect too much. I will buy chocolates at KLIA if I have nothing for you guys. Hahaha. What a great idea I have! Bang bang I can't wait to go back seriously. There are so many things waiting for me. And I have some plan dy =). Woohoo! What a life. Gonna stay busy stay busy! And I have two more John Grisham books to read here. Should be able to finish it before I go back. Ahakx. I don't want bring no books back home. I am having headache of bringing things back dy ><.

Any of u guys heard about the people predicting the end of world yesterday(21/5)? It's completely crazy. Somebody left their job and sold all their stuffs. Okay. It didn't happen. The rumours spreaded across US and it's just bullshit ><. another doomsday prediction is on it's way. 21/12/12 by Mayan. Woots. I have no idea how this one will be. But I am staying with my family =). that's should be the time just after STPM ><. I heard host mum said the pastor in the church will have a sermon about "end of the world" later. Lol. I am looking forward it. Don't be confused. I am still a Buddhist/taoist as I was.

The 911 documentary video is impressive. When the towers collapsed. The dust that rushed to the streets was just incredible. Everybody was sank in dust. All their hairs went white and people started coughing like their lungs were choked. Yea. It's crazy. Everything was so dramatic and movie like. But those were real. My gosh. I couldn't stop thinking for a few days =x. It's a nightmare.

Bang bang 40 days more!
I am so ready for home =).

Vacation vacation come come!!!

So many bugs because of all the rains and floods. hardly stand outside and shoot the ball for long ><. Wth?!

Glad to have them as my family =).

Fatt - love ya!

911

2011-05-18T05:40:00.001+08:00

It was stunning. How many of u guys remember what u did on 11 sept 2001? Ten years back. Anyone of you guys remember that moment? I did. I was at grandma house. And my parents were away. They went to china for vacation and I was staying with grandma. That was the day I never forget. For Americans. It's a day full with grief and shock. The unexpected attack of terrorism was on that day. The day that had changed America today. It was an event that changed how people see the modern world today.

I remember that day so well. I remember I was sitting in front of tv and unwilling to get away because I want to listen the news. how many malaysians has died in that plane crash? You know I was only 8 that time. I thought that plane might be the plane that my parents were on. I was so afraid and I prayed and prayed and prayed. Oh ya. My parents were going to china. You may think that's funny but that's a thought of a little boy. I felt so much better after grandma explain to me the route to china and to US. And after they called back from china. Okay. "My parents are safe." and till today. I never forget that feeling of worries and scares.

Modern world civilization. This class especially. We watched so many videos. From 1900 to 2000. And finally. Monday we reached the new century. 2001. It was a DVD set by history channel. They collected amateur videos from people and reorganized it. Made it a documentary video. It's really neat. 102 minutes that change America. And there's a part that recorded the 2nd plane crashed into the 2nd building. The explosion and the screaming of the video taper ><. "oh my god oh my god" is what we heard the most. I guess they filtered all the cursing dy. Woots. Seriously. I was in grief when I was watching that. My heart beat faster. The video was so intense. It made me feel really into it. I was enthralled. Oh my gosh. Especially when you see those person jump from the building. =x. And u see them hanging out at the window waiting and waving for help. Gosh ><. this is not movie. Real life. Dang ><. A human life. Nop. About 3000++ of human lives there. The temperature were so high. People were trapped in the upper floor. It was 8++ 9 in the morning. A brand new nice morning. Everyone was evacuated from the buildings nearby or whatsoever. Everyone moved on the street. Crossed the road. Followed the instruction of the police. People were crying shouting. Everything was so dramatic and unbelievable =x.

Seriously I thought of a lot of things after watching that video. I couldn't imagine those lives there. How cruel.

The video is not finish yet. The building has not topple. We were at 9:40am I guess. Forgotten. Gonna continue the video tomorrow.

Life is really short. Wasting time on things that are not worth for? Too stupid.
Appreciate everyone around you. You never know what will happen next second.

It's crazy. I was really "inspired".

Chatbox deleted. No pollution ><. comment if u have something to share.

Fatt - future is there.

Mid of may!

2011-05-16T06:45:00.000+08:00

Woohoo. Seriously. I feel time passed so fast =x. It's like almost the end of may. errr 16 more days. But I am pretty sure it will be over in just a blink of eye. I am so pumped these days. No idea why. Haha. Sometimes I really used to the life here. Though it's really boring sometimes. There were some feelings that messed me up. I really think how those people doing at the other side of the world? Hmmm.

I went tanned these days. It was really hot few days ago. But it is chilly today. It's spring concert. For band and choir. Hmm last time playing those competition song. Seriously I recommend "An American Elegy". It's really cool. Check it out. I got some news about the musicthon in July over at megamall. Woohoo. I am looking forward for that =). Although I have no idea how my violin skills will be. Not playing it for so long after all =x. And I am sure the violin will sound terrible too ><.

Woots. Eminem Eminem thats what I listen to these days. Never pay attention to those lyrics much those days. But these days. That seriously cool =). I have been planning for life after I back. I hope it will go well. Especially the holiday in august? There should be one right. I may use that to study the two months things that I left out. Seriously. I have no idea how much have I forgotten about sciences and how hard are those subjects. All I can do is try my best. Aim for 4.0 this time!!!

I am extremely alright here. Besides the hairs. I have no idea. More and more grey hairs. Dang it ><. So many things to think meh? =x. Maybe ~~~~

Left a month and a half. All I need to do the most is buy I guess. Seriously I bought so many t shirts. Not for me =.=. I hope the shipping won't cost too much. And and and dunno what to buy for girls ><. lol.

I couldn't stop reading John Grisham. One book after another. I hope that will help for the muet test! =x.

Fatt - can't wait =)

Fail

2011-05-14T06:49:00.000+08:00

I failed. Form 6 I am coming.

I felt so disappointed when I see the two words "tidak berjaya". Maybe this is the time for me to learn the feeling of failure. I had been getting what I wanted in the past few years. Always. How many times did I really fail in something I want. No idea. Not much. That's what I remember. Maybe this is the time to go through the lower part. Feel the down. Dang. I don't like it. Hmmm. I dunno what to say but I feel so sorry to my parents and everyone who had helped me =x. That's it.

I should really enjoy the days here. Gonna back to school life after I back..

I hope I wont miss too much. And able to catch up fast.

Fatt - never fail again =x

5/11

2011-05-12T10:06:00.000+08:00

School is gonna out in two weeks time. I have no idea how life will be. I may be the few who likes school here. Although the early wake in the morning is sucks. I can finish a story book in 3 4 days. Lol. I am scoring more points than I needed. I wonder will I still read when I get back later? Or life will be too busy for hours to read? Hmmmm.

Days fly by. The hours are like minutes nowadays. It's just the beginning of may and I am feeling the end of it. I miss home too much I guess. Sometimes I think of overseas studies in the future? How hard do i have to fight with myself? I am hoping for JPA though. The hours and money that spent should have redeem back. I don't know. I don't feel like back to the form6 life. I am so bored with the examination system. Which I can scratch my head off for studying. STPM is not a joke. It's nothing like SPM which you can go for form6 if your results sucks. And from what I know. The scope is much wider and the exam is much harder. I hate those days which i need to force myself to study ><. U know i dont study on normal days. I really hope for Jpa. If I get nothing. It will be form 6 for me =x.

Something I learn here is "individualistic". Which I don't really like. In some situation perhaps. I prefer the family oriented tradition of Asians. These seems too over for me. I am still a mama boy I guess. Maybe because I have really great parents =).

I went tanned again these days. The weather were so damn freaking hot. It's like Malaysia. Seriously. 30 degree celsius like that maybe. Wind blew hot air! I felt freaking weird everytime I went from indoor to outdoor. For months. I had preparation everytime that the coldness gonna freeze my ass when I walk out the door. The mind set was there. And till now. It gonna burn my skin. I can't imagine how's summer here =x. Woots!

Those bugs really irritate me. Because of the flooding everywhere I guess. There are more bugs this year according to my friends. Imagine u are running on track and u can feel those bugs around u flying here and there. Oh my gosh. That's just terrible. I don't remember there are much over in the field over home. Ouch!

I got real hungry last night. Which I would knock on parents' room door and said "妈咪，肚子饿". Then maybe we would go out for supper. Or maybe she would suggest some foods downstairs which I could eat. Or I would text the gangs and go YC in just few minutes time. Or maybe I would drive with my sister up to tc for mcd drive thru. That were those days. I really hope there's roti canai and Milo last night =x. Awwwww!

Just two more months! I can't wait for the foodssssss =).

I having real trouble with souvenirs. Too little that I can bring home and too much people to buy for. And I dunno what to buy =x. Dang. Don't blame me if there's no souvenirs. Hehehe.

I really miss those days that I would rush out and bought and brought u something u want in 15 minutes.

Fatt - believes.

5/9

2011-05-10T10:22:00.002+08:00

I was actually too lazy for typing. But I decided to do it at last. Hahaha.

School was cool today. Again. As the marching band season was in fall. So I am not lucky enough to be part of it. I remember how much times both my sisters spent in the band practice. And here. They did the same. Countless hours of learning pieces and scores. Memorizing. Going on steps and formations. You can't really evaluate how much effort they had put in. I am the only one in the class who is not part of marching band =x. Woots. So they did their "memory recall" today by playing through all the songs again. It was pretty impressive and of course the drumline part was my favorite. Haha.

Last track meet today. All we left is a conference meet and sectional next week. As usual. I scratched my name off the list because I was not really good enough to run. I am not fast. Lol. So i helped in recording each person's time again. I dunno. I think I like the job. It's pretty fun. Especially when whole bunch of peoples pass the finish line together and I was struggling to look for their names and oh ya. Thats one of the cool part. Lol. Abnormal. I did managed to bring my camera to school today. What's too bad is it's only boy's meet today. There was no girls. And the two left. Will have no girls too I guess ><. Woots. Haha. But most of the time. My camera was on others' hands =x.

Jpa results postponed again =.=

I did something impressive. Read almost 350 pages of a story book in two days. Lol. Check out John Grisham. I really think he is a good writer. And now about 60 more pages to go. Can't wait for it to be done by tomorrow! =).

50 days countdown to meet back the malaysians!!!

Fatt - aint that bored.

I love you

2011-05-08T20:17:00.003+08:00

Words can't tell how thankful I am and how much love I have for her.

You have to meet her to know how nice she is and how awesome she is.

She is the best type of mum you can ever dream of.

Everyday's a mother's day.
Days to appreciate your mum while u still can.
Far beyond celebrating.

I love you mum.

Fatt

5/6

2011-05-07T09:31:00.000+08:00

I was certainly not feeling well these two days. Came back earlier from school yesterday because I felt real bad at school. Went to the nurse office then I threw up. And I was sent home. Lol. I slept all day yesterday yet my headache is still bothering me today all day. Dang. Yea. I had bad sleep last night. Woke up several times in the midnight. And I had bad dream again =(. The nurse and host mum dare not to give me any medicine because I am allegic to some of the medicine. Even the medicine I brought with me written : should not taken if allegic to any NSAIDs. I dare not to take the risk ><. so what I hope is it will be all gone when I wake up tomorrow morning.

I felt so touched last night when I received a message from dad. I don't know. I feel that this long distance has made our relationship closer and closer. My family and I. Love them so much. Especially I realize how great my parents are. My dad start planning for my life after I back. How can u find a better dad on earth than him? Woohoo. I dont know. I feel I am damn lucky to be in the family. And I can't wait to go back to live with them again and the family vacation in august =). I know I can't demand more. And I won't. Because I have enough.

Check out John Grisham. My best writer so far. He is really cool.

One thing I really want to do is have some spicy foods.

I hope that I have real nice sleep tonight.

No more headache tomorrow! ><.

She just don't understand.

Fatt - dang.

4/5

2011-05-05T10:43:00.003+08:00

So the Internet was not working last night or this morning. And my Malaysia cell phone was not usable too because it was already over the limit because of too much texting in April. And I missed the day of wishing my dad happy birthday ><. Dang. Alhough I wished him just now. But it's already 5/5 over in Malaysia. Ouch. I felt so sorry.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! The best dad on earth =)

Okay. AP test today. What the hell. I screwed it up. Oh my gosh. That's the worst test ever that I took in my entire life. I left some questions in the free response section blank because I don't even know how to get started. Dang. Nevermind. The test is not that important to me and oh ya definitely I will fail the test I think. Lol. Result out in July ! Haha.

Last home track meet yesterday. I gave up on my 800m by not running it. I was really tired and my legs felt sore. So I ended up recording each runner's time for the coach. I guess I did a nice job in recording all the time. Hahaha. What a lazy person =x. I am just not doing good in track ><. Somehow I hope I did.

Band banquet tonight. I was given the "first chair award" and they spell my name as "tan Teng". American dont use their middle name much as they thought "Fatt" is my middle name. I tried to write it as TengFatt, Tan everyday. But still they treat my Fatt as middle name. Lol. As it's part of my first name. Nvm. I understand that. Lol. So end up most ppl call me Tan as how I introduce myself. An normally teacher call me Teng. Lol.

Was finished with the slideshow yesterday. Have to do presentation about Malaysia next week!
I am patriotic enough I guess. Lol.

Dang dang. I hope I am.

Fatt - 2 more months?

0105

2011-05-02T03:37:00.003+08:00

Wooh. What two nice days I had =). Thats seriously sweet. For concert band competition. Okay we did not bad I guess... But in terms of intonation wise.... Not good. Ahakx. No choice. The stage was so freaking hot and our instruments were getting warm so tunes went sharp. Oops. But tell u what. We got GOLD from all three judges. And a gold for sight reading too =). Ahakx. So now I have no idea how other schools perform yet. Hope we can really make into state final...! Something really funny happened is that. Our band was really small compared to the other school. The school before us and after us. Dang. We have only 2 flutes and they have like 11 flutist ><. gosh. But still I think we are good enough. Haha.

Saturday was another fun day. It's prom babe. No prom partner me. Consequences of acting too slow =x. Luckily I have buddies who I can ride with. Oh my. Did u see my Facebook? Camaro. That's so sweet =). And another Buddy drove mustang. Woohoo. I sat both of them in just one day. Life is so awesome isn't it? Hahaha. That's the sweetest car ride ever. 100mph during rainy day and the car was so freaking stable. Hilarious. So prom was another experience for me. American way of dance and so called dirty dance. Lol. I guess I will be slapped by those girls if I ever do that in Malaysia. Piak Piak Piak?! Haha. Can't imagine that there. Ahakx. I guess it wasn't too bad. Is good if u have a partner and is okay too if you don't have a partner because everyone like has no partner after the grand march. Lol. Besides the couples lah. Haha. And I learned how to "dance". Woots. Haha save that for myself.

After prom was another cool part. Hypnotist came and we had a show. Omg that's damn cool man. I 100% confirm a few of them were really been hypnotized and could see some of them were awake sometimes. Lol. That whole hour I just laughed my ass off so hard. Oh dang. Couldn't believe they really "under control?" Wooh. That's just so interesting and funny. Hahaha. And of course there were so many foods and games to play there. And reached home at about 4am. Gosh. I weren't really tired though. Dunno why ><. but. Woke up 830 this morning to go to church. Lol. I am amazing. And I haven't take a nap till now yet. Woots ><. should take a nap after this post. Hahaha.

Just had an amazing two days. Looking forward for more to come!

Dang AP test Wednesday ><.

Oh ya... God bless the broken road.

She was really pretty =).

Fatt - dun slap me!

0428

2011-04-29T11:19:00.003+08:00

It's a day. Not a bad day. Besides the migraine early in the morning. Gosh. That just killed me in the morning. Oh my. Basically I am preparing myself for the AP calculus test. And I realize I am really not good in it. And oh ya. People here and people in Malaysia are so freaking different. AP test is like some what important test for them for the college. And guess what? They don't really make it a real big deal I guess. As we just started doing the sample test last week. And we are now still on the first set. Section 1. Not even section 2 yet. Gosh. I wonder how am I going to take this ><. btw. We will only know the result by fall? I will be gone that time dy weh. Hahaha. But still I care. It's just terrible when u look at those questions and u dunno what to do. I hate those feelings =x.

Hmm sometimes I really think that I do too much for people. Like I will sacrifice myself to do something that people don't want to do. I do it just because they don't want. And there must be somebody who have to do it. And I put it on my shoulder. I dunno. Maybe this is type of people that get bully by people always. But I am always the same. Gosh. And I don't think I get the same treatment like I treat others. I am just. Dunno. I feel disappoint in someone like seriously. Gosh.

And Wth ppl liking my "hopes gone....." status?
Dang.

Nothing about her. Slap me if I ever post anything again! ><

I have more White hairs on top of my head. I dunno why =(. I couldnt sleep well like I first came here these days. There are just too many thoughts and is hard for me to fall asleep ><. even yesterday when I was freaking tired. And I dreamed fucking a lot. Gosh. All nonsense dream which made me felt sick after I woke up. Can't just leave me alone and let me sleep well? I seriously need it!

Oh ya. Concert band competition tomorrow.
Wish us luck! *those parents said it is impossible to beat those big schools. ><
Go go north posey Vikings!

Fatt - I really hope I can.

0427

2011-04-28T11:05:00.003+08:00

I am seriously freaking tired right now. Oh my gosh. I have no idea why I feel I am not in shape now. Like worse than last few weeks ><. Track practice is hard for me again. Not only for me actually. For every short distance runners I guess? No one talk when we were walking back to the starting line. Everyone just walk walk and walk. Too tired to talk maybe? Hahaha. And guess what? I have band practice after the track practice today. I guess my stamina must be strong huh? Haha. My saxophone just don't work good. Possibly of my breathing? Haha. Too tired man =x. And not to forget the squat test in the morning to see what's the maximum weight I can do on. Oh ya. I went up a lot. I am really glad. Haha.

Was thinking of doing something after came back from band practice. Too bad it's just not the right time. Aihx. Have to wait till tomorrow night again. Gosh ><. it should be alright though =). I hope lah.....

If u are curious of what songs we are going to play for the concert band comp. Check out "klaxon" , "the American elegy" and "canzon,fugato and hymn". Three songs. American elegy is my favorite. It has really strong meaning behind that song. And it's a really emotional song. It's a great song. I really hope we can break the record and make it to state final. As there was no any small school like us made it to the state final before. Hopefuly we can do it.....

I seriously need like 24 hours of sleep ><.

Dang. AP test next Wednesday? And I am still blur ><

Fatt- hope for the best...

0425

2011-04-26T10:56:00.002+08:00

If you ask me why are u updating ur blog almost every single day? I shall tell u that because I am free and I am bored =x. Hmm... Well. Honestly. I jealous a bit to the other friends who are hosted in a not-so-strict family. So they have freedom to do what they want. But that's alright for me. I believe that all of us will get different experiences. And of course they get what they have and I get what I have. In the end, everybody will be almost equal. You get more from these aspects, and I get more from the others.

Days has been quite Free and easy for me. Seriously. If u ask me which life I prefer. I still prefer those days which I rush in and out from house. From one place to the another. Those busy life. I don't think I reach the age for free and easy life yet. This just causes me to become more lazy ny ><. Woots. Maybe I am used to those life with packed activities? Who knows?

Oh yea. I have to study these weeks. For the AP calculus test. Gosh. I don't really understand some topics and hell ya I don't wanna get bad grade for the test. Woots. Should be alright huh? Time flies. 2 more months left. Can't wait to go back seriously. No idea why. Miss my family too much? Woohoo.... Something I really learn here is appreciate my family =). remember those days when I choose to eat breakfast with "friend" instead of "mum". I feel so bad when I think about that. I am sure I gonna spend most of my meal time with the family. Because that's the time for family. I miss those times after dinner which everyone sit in the living room, watching tv and have some fruits. Awwwww.

Jpa result is going to be out next week? No idea how will it be. Form 6 for me if the result is negative. Cheers for more time with family =). Boo for back to the examination style of school ><.

I am tired of it =(.

Happy birthday to mr Khoo!!!
Happy birthday to Adlene kho!!!

Fatt - slap!

0424

2011-04-25T08:25:00.003+08:00

Just finished viber call with parents. I miss them so so so much! I am still a baby boy I guess ><.

It's Easter day today! Bunny bunny candy candy jelly beans jelly beans. Yup. First time in my life I experience this. Included dyeing eggs receiving Easter buckets. Big lunch at noon and went to church in the morning. Woots. I wonder how's Easter celebration in Malaysia. I didn't experience it yet at home. Hope to experience it too someday. Quite fun though. Dyeing eggs is the best part. I really think that I am quite an artistic person. Hahaha. Not I cheeky or what lah. But seriously slowly I realize I am. Lol.

I am sick of the weather. Thunder and rain everyday. So we are stuck at home. Even here in Louisville ><. Ouch. I was seriously bored in the afternoon and I just played with the two little girls and took a 2 hours nap. Hahaha. My gosh. I really can't imagine life in June =x. That will be so so so bored I guesss. I hope it wont. Sometimes I really think that half year is too long. But I guess I will feel it is too short when I am going back that time. Woots. Just 2 more months. Time flies.

Guess what. Barbie movie on now. Gonna watch together with the girls. Haha. Nop sorry. My eyes are on my phone all the time =p.

I dunno. This is fate. Be contented.

Just stop appearing in my dream ><.

Fatt - Aww.

0422

2011-04-23T14:57:00.002+08:00

It's 3am here right now. Down in Louisville again. Easter holiday. They have family gathering here. How I wish I can have mine too. Seriously. I can't wait to meet my family.

I can't fall sleep. Roll roll and roll. Dang I dunno what I was thinking. There were just too much thoughts crossed my mind. Overlapped each other. Messed up and didnt show a clear platform. Gosh. I don't know what happen but these days. I hardly fall asleep at night ><. I hate this. It made me feel so tired during day time ><. ouch!

I just finish another story book. And I learned some German words from there.

You saukerl! Lol. This is my favourite.

Completely stranger now.
Nothing there's just nothing left for you.

Mein herz ist gebrochen.

Fatt - ah =(

2011-04-22T12:55:00.002+08:00

Went through the messages.
Went through the blog posts.
Went through the photos.

Everything is still fucking stuck in my head.
How do I get the hell out of it? Damn.
I am pissed by myself. What a joke.

Don't give a dang rip to what that is.
How I hope I am.

0421

2011-04-22T11:30:00.003+08:00

Oh ya. Sometimes u may say I am superstition. I think I am quite a one. Tell u what? Since yesterday my Left eyelid was like keep "moving". I dunno what word should I use to describe that feeling but that's it. And people normally say left indicates something good will happen and right foretells something bad will happen? So I was not thinking about all these when I was in school. Just I felt weird itchy and a little uncomfortable with it. Something even more uncomfortable is my calf muscle pain ><. Woots. Hmm.... So I went home after the band practice at 9 something. Woots. I just randomly detect see whether I can get the neighbour's wifi back or not? And oh ya. It appeared. I was so damn freaking excited and hell ya. Finally after almost a month. The wifi is back. Oh my gosh. This is just hilarious!!!

Lol. I was just overreacting =c.

Tell u what. Last two day. Tuesday night. Weather forecast severe thunder storm. And there's tornado warning. The town's siren was on and I guess a lot people were nervous. Even my host parents. Lol. The wind was like moving 90 mph. Oh dang. And when we saw the news that the strong wind is going to come. We brought in all the chairs outside the house. Ahakz. And well tornado. Stay from the window. So there's only one place without window in the whole house. The hallway. So we take some pillow to protect our head and just air at the hallway. It was pretty long though. From 919 and after ten minutes the wind is still not here. We didn't sit at the hallway anymore. I went back to read my books and everyone did their things. Suddenly.. The electric went out. Oh god damn I was shocked. Hahaha. Then host mum said " here it comes". Then everybody move to the hallway. We can seriously hear the wind blowing and some stuffs near the window shaking. Woohoo. I was excited I dunno why. Hahaha. I thought it was fun though. Lol. Then everything was calm after that. Besides. The electric is not back until the next day afternoon ><.

Yea it was lucky that the tornado didn't really pass through this area. The area just like 10 miles in front of us got hit. You can see the news guys were doing their report there. Their roofs were tore and u can just see random thing in the middle of field. Oh dang. That area was a real mess. Lucky that ours were still normal. Nothing hurt much. Only those small tree branches fell and a little small part of roof behind the house damaged. Others are good as they were.

Woohoo. I dunno. But errrr. It's good Friday tomorrow!

痛了就会好了

Fatt - never forget ><

0417

2011-04-17T20:49:00.002+08:00

Leaving in the afternoon Iater. I think of all the homeworks I have and I am like all my gosh. Some are do Friday actually. But because I was not goin to school. I didn't do anything on Thursday night since I didnt have that much time too.

Really need some sleep nowadays since I slept really little these few days. Gosh. I can sleep easily on car this time. Even 15 minutes of journey. Hahaha.

Just a freaking short post.

Wish me luck in whatever I want to do.
I really hope it will go smooth =x.

Fatt - go for it =)

0416

2011-04-17T11:51:00.003+08:00

I try to update every single day when I have wifi. If not I will not know when will I have chance or how dead my blog will be.

Yesterday was not a nice sleep day. Because of the coffee I drank in Atlanta. I had no sleepy mood at all. Though I was really tired. But who cares? I had ppl to chat with. And I ended up to have only 4 hours of sleep. For two days, I had only 8 hours of sleep and today, I guess it will be quite the same. Dang for the dream these days. Made me homesick. Ahhhh ><. I dreamed she wrote a poem for me as she did last time. Telling me how much she miss and love me. And I woke up. Looked at the clock. It's only 511am. What a pathetic dream.

Today was not a too bad day. Though the weather is bad. Went to baseball game and thunder. It's a famous event in Louisville. Search it of u want to. Too bad it was too cold. Imagine. Middle of April. U have to wear winter coat when u are going out. This is creepy... Dang! Rainy somemore ><. so we didn't look much things. Just basically watched the baseball game and headed on back. Then fireworks at night. The largest fireworks in USA. It was really cool =). I wonder when I can officially throw the coat away?!

I have no idea should or shouldn't I?

Had a blog. Is her and his.

Fatt - why do I care?

0415

2011-04-16T14:13:00.003+08:00

Yea this is fucking sucks. No wifi at host parents' home yet. I wonder what happen to the neighbor. Lol. I was on emotional ride this week. Week full with tears, worries, hopes and lastly joys and laughters with friends and the track team. Seriously. Never feel so helpless before. There was a night that I really needed somebody to talk and somebody to tell, there was no one. No Internet. I couldnt find anybody. I was all by myself in the blanket, searching for wifi every seconds hope that it appear, it didn't. And I fell asleep because of the tiredness.

I was really in dilemma few days ago. I had no one to discuss with me and no one to talk to. All I did was text msg with Sis and mum. I am sure phone bill will be freaking high this month. I had passed through a lot of obstacles in order to go to Washington DC for the interview. And I had help from a lot of people for the last minute plan. I am really thankful for the financial support from my parents and the confidence of them in me. The sisters who trust me all the time and gave me tonnes of advices always. Seriously. I miss them so much. Never never before I felt that warmth before. I was really touch and glad. They helped me to achieve the things I want and need. Oh gosh. If you have never feel touch until cry. You never know how special those feelings are.

So I went to DC for the JPA interview. It was a freaking long day for me. Woke up at 445am in the morning. And reached final destination by about 145am the next day. And I am typing now. It's a new record. 4 flights in a day and spent the most in a day. Beyond what you imagine ><. Got on plane in Evansville and fly to Detroit, Detroit to Washington dc. Then shuttle to Malaysia embassy then lunch then shuttle back to airport. Then 2 hours delay flight from dc to Atlanta, and finally atlanta to Louisville. And here I am again.

The best part of this whole thing is the lunch. Oh gosh. Can u imagine u finally have curry laksa after 3 4 months? And tell u what. It taste quite the same as the one we had in Malaysia. It's a restaurant by Indonesian. The Malaysia embassy staff was kind enough to treat me that awesome meal. And order fried rice for me to bring to airport somemore. Chili padi man! Oh my gosh. That's the best meal I had in USA so far. Hahaha. The interview was err I have no idea. I have to say my Malay was really bad after so many months of not using it. Cacat betul. I can't think of those words and I just stuck in the middle. I hope I won't screw it up after gettin help from so many ppl =)

And for track! I am not fast enough to sprint so they put me in 800m. It's really hard to get places in 800m. So my target for every meet is achieve personal best time and never be the last 5 to finish. Ngek Ngek.

Gosh I feel so proud to be Malaysian I dunno why.

And special thanks to the AiFS staff Stacey and Charlene for arranging all my flights and shuttle.
And the best main man ever Luke for helping me to print out all the Certs and documents and send to me in the midnight after the track meet.
And of course my beloved family for the great amount of money and tonnes of supports wishes and advices.

Awwww. I can't wait till June to go back and meet my family! Gosh.

Wish me good luck for jpa scholarship!

I dreamed of you the other night again ><

Fatt- dang

0604

2011-04-07T03:15:00.002+08:00

On the way back to school now. Friend's iPhone has wifi tethering after jailbreak. Awesome huh =p. Too bad we can't use it at school if not I can online every single day =). Fb notifications boomed ><. sorry if I didn't reply you. It's way too many =x. Not enough time to see. Ahakz. Anyway sweet. I gonna jailbreak my phone after I back. That will be awesome! =).

Haha spring is seriously here I think. Warm and windy today. Chilly a little but cooling lah! Oh gosh. First track meet tomorrow and I have no idea what events will I be doing. We will know it at the track practice later. I just love spring =). Awwww. It's April. No more snowing please ><.

It's time to get rid of all the thick coats and shirts. Awe.

More field trip please! =p.

I seriously hope I can detect the wifi by later or sooner.
Its really weird to not check on Fb or twitter every night ><.

Fatt - had Chinese buffet today!

0403

2011-04-03T21:34:00.002+08:00

I am glad that I had Internet and computer usage yesterday. And video call with mum dad Sis grandma aunt and cousins =). life will be much more awesome if there's wifi at host family house. Let me detect it when I get back later. Please ><

Photos were up yesterday. I hope u guys enjoy it as I didn't take really a lot =x. There are more to come. I was lazy after the 2 hours waiting. Hahaha.

Nothing much for me.

I like ceramics nowadays =)

I dreamed u for couple days. And realized it was completely a different story when I woke up.

Fatt - dang it ><

April fool

2011-04-02T07:16:00.003+08:00

Sorry guys. Less update from now on. I can't detect the neighbour's wifi for no idea. Hope that is the router problem and it will be fixed soon and I can online every night. Ah. This is not an april fool jokes ><

Life is as usual here. And getting awesome cause more things to do. I am used to the life here.

Something creepy. Snow shower two days ago? WTF? It's April!!!! ><

Awwww at restaurant for dinner right now. Chaoz.

Don't miss me too much =p.

Fatt - wifi wifi I need you!

2702

2011-03-28T11:58:00.004+08:00

Goodnight people. Lol. 11% of my battery left. I am back here. Not Malaysia. Too bad. Lol. The place where I am hosted in. Was on the car for that long. 9am-6pm ><. of course stopped for lunch and pee a lot of stuffs. Watched a lot of cartoon with the kids on the car. Hell ya that was just weird. Though toystory3 was not bad. Lol. There go my spring break. Awww. No more break till June. I have whole month there =.=. Have to figure out what to do.

I am worrying about my scholarship stuffs. Ah no 9a+ no guarantee for scholarship =(. Aihx. I did something really great that's using my iPhone to do all the stuffs. Imagine the little screen. Woots. Glad that I have good eyesight. Hahaha. And special credit to my eldest sis again for helping me with all the scholarship stuffs. She didn't do it for herself those days =x. Love her so much =).

I guess I will need to buy a lot of souvenir. But. How to bring back? Shipping is like. Freaking high. Nothing will worth that much ><

Lol I have 25 hours today =p. Time zone change!

I think I am quite a good tipper. Lol

I am doing ridiculous things again =x. Aihx.

Shut ur mouth.

Fatt - oh please =)

2402

2011-03-24T11:27:00.002+08:00

Currently in Louisville, Kentucky. If you don't know this place. You have to know. This is where the papa John, pizza hut, long fish silver, taco bell, A&W etc born. Here for some spring break vacation =). sweet. But off to Pennsylvania tomorrow.

Seriously I still feel like dreaming. I got my result dy? The feeling is so unreal. Maybe because I haven't get to see it by myself or what. Anyway I am gonna use this tiny little iPhone to do all my application for scholarship. And hell ya. How to search with this? Ish. Words small small and I am dying to see it.

If I start prepare it earlier. Or I didn't fool around during that period. I can be better. But. I am okay enough with my result. Though it don't seems great compare to all the 9a+ and full a+ ppl. 6 is quite a good number too. Lol. Convince myself =x.

I have only 23 hours today. Because the time zone change. Lol.

I have the best sister in the world. I have to say this =).

Fatt - what's next? =x

2011-03-23T19:42:00.002+08:00

Those hard work that we paid off together.
Those celebration that never be together.

2303

2011-03-23T14:10:00.003+08:00

I don't know what's going on with me. But I feel sorry and bad right now. Like. I shouldn't feel happy with what I have. Friends. I saw them worked so hard for the exam. Harder than me. They did more exercises and worksheets. So many. And yet. The result is not equivalent to what they have done. I feel so bad ><.

Hey brothers and friends out there. You guys did a nice job. Be happy and contented with what you have =). Be proud that we are the best badge ever. We did great job throughout the year and we are good =). Co-curriculum or academic. We are the best that the school has never had before. Be proud of ourselves!

I love you guys!

I really wish I was there. Never in my life I take any important examination result by myself before. UPSR PMR SPM. All through phone. How I wish I can really be there and feel the excitement? ><

Special credit for my eldest sis to take the result and inform me =).
Love you!

Fatt - I am with u guys.

2203

2011-03-23T12:12:00.003+08:00

Okay. This is the time. I had been nervous since I woke up this morning. And hell ya waiting is really killing me. Seriously. Oh gosh luckily the results turn out to be good =). Although it's not perfect. But I am satisfied with it. Yea the results is unexpected. In terms of subject. Like those which I confident in and those which I am not. It all messed up ><. Okay have to say that I don't work hard enough for those A- subjects. Something really surprise me is none of my language subject get A+. WTF? I was good in it always. Some of my afs frens were doing real good. One of it 10A+ and two more 9A+. wow? I wonder how's my school doing. If you are kind enough to tell me please fb msg me. Thank you. =p.

Oh I can't sleep tonight ><.

Trip tomorrow!!!

Fatt - contented.

2103

2011-03-22T03:02:00.000+08:00

I have nothing to do now. So I decided to type a long long post. Hahaha. Nice timing huh? Maybe I will do it tomorrow again cause there's really nothing to do tomorrow besides the early morning track practise. Yea u didn't read it wrong. Track practise. WTF with me over here? I didnt even try to run since secondary school. Even those on sports day that u try to earn points for your house. What u call that? Sukan Tara? Ahakx. I don't really remember. Yea and my legs sore for the first whole week of practise. I have to say I am completely out of shape but I am getting better now. Lol. But my right quadriceps muscle has never recover yet. Maybe not yet. Everytime I try to sprint. It hurts. No idea. It will be alright after sometime though =).

Another unusual thing that I have done here is art. Dang. I did ceramics. Okay that's cool enough. And I did drawing. Ever expect that? No not anyone. And tell u what. People were impressed with my drawing and I got an A for my ceramics. Lol. Which I didnt expect ><. And now teacher are expecting higher on me and he would like to see me to do some Chinese watercolor painting. Something like the season thingy, or the bamboo bla bla. And poem. Haha. 独在异乡为异客，每逢佳节必思亲. This is a real nice one for me right? Ahakx my mandarin is still going well. I even went to those Chinese newspaper website sometimes. Keep track of things happen in Malaysia so that I can still chime u guys in when I am back. Hahaha. Lee Chong wei beat Lin Dan in England? Finally? Woohoo. How I wish I could watch that game here =x.

Blah. I have really no idea about SPM results now. I don't think I worked hard enough for that exam ><. Aihx. It's too late to regret or anything. Results is coming out on Tuesday night!!! My time lah. How I wish I can facetime with everyone there but there's no sim card on my iPhone and I can't call ><. Ewwwww. I really miss those days that I can do anything I want. My parents gave me enough freedom for myself. No restriction no rules. No nothing. Financial. I have more than enough. And I spent more than I should. Yea. This is part of growing. I learned to appreciate. I remember those days when I was small I wish that my parents can be like who who who bla bla bla. And yea as I grow I realize how good they are and how lucky I am. Yea that's a saying. When u didn't experience the bad, u will never know what the good is. My host parents are not bad. But because of their responsibility, I can't do whatever I want or go where I want to go. I don't get the freedom I had in Malaysia. But that's fine enough. Be contented. And adapt myself into the situation. I am still good and enjoying my experience. Though the boredom is killing me sometimes.

I don't have the confidence that I have at home. Language problem. People don't understand me and I don't understand them sometimes. So if you ever think of coming to united states. My advise to you. Build Ur American accent. It will help you a lot. Like seriously a lot.

I am so sorry of all these words but no pics. I have no comp. Gosh.

I miss my queen size bed. My laptop. My piano. My violin. The cars!!!
Mummy daddy and the three sisters and the dog xixi. Haha.
And lastly all my Brothers friends and buddy =).

23rd is a special date. It's 100 days countdown to back to Malaysia.
And it's the Date which spm results release. ><

Fatt - jogging later =)

1903

2011-03-20T08:58:00.001+08:00

Spring break! Oh hell ya! I felt super awesome those days when came to holiday. But not this time. I don't hate the school here. Maybe not yet but I don't think I will. It's still quite fresh for me. Besides the need of waking up early every weekdays. Others are completely okay for me. Things I worry is will I be bored? Nop. Not really. I have plan for almost everyday this spring break. Of course host family planned for vacation to some places. Sweet.

Oh yea. I have to tell my friends. I am sorry that I can't promise souvenir for you guys because i forgotten my debit card password ><. And that made my dad have to wire money to my host mum's account. It is really inconvenient for me to bring large amount of cash out. I am sorry for that. So don't expect anything ya =x. Ahakx. No expectation no disappointment =p.

March madnessssss! Woots. Basketball on tv all the time. Though I don't really into it. But some were really exciting. Ahakx. Especially after you fill in the paper which u predict who will be the final four of this year. Oh. I missed 6 out of 32 games in the second round. The best in my host family so far. Haha. Cool huh.

Oh yea guess what. I regret again for not buying those t shirts in chicago. Dang. I will not think much again next time.

I am really looking forward for all the outings and vacation.

SPM is out on 23rd ><. it will be a Tuesday night for me.
Awwwww. Please straight A+ or at least straight A's =).

Fatt - where is the girl? =x

The windy city

2011-03-15T12:16:00.003+08:00

Currently in Chicago. Field trip. Awesome. Ahakx. I told myself I have to get one update here. This hotel is not as cool as the one we had in dc but I prefer this because there's wifi for the hotel guest. Sweet right? Ahakx. Free hot chocolate or coffee anytime and cookies.... Woots =). nice. Unfortunately we are leaving tomorrow morning. Ewwwwww.

This place really reminds me of KL. The tall buildings and the highways. Nothing strange besides the driving side which is different. But the downtown view is really different. It reminds me of akihabara in Tokyo. Wooh. Still different lah. I do agree with the statement that most cities look quite the same. Yea. They have their unique side of it. Chicago is not as cold as we think. Not too strong wind or what. Spent a lot on foods. Ahakx. But I can't find really nice souvenirs. So I bought nothing. I like this city though. I will sure come back one day. Ahakx.

I have quite a lot photos to show. But no comp to upload.
Have to wait July ><. Ewwwww.

Fatt - more field tripsss leh? =x

0311

2011-03-12T10:12:00.000+08:00

The earthquake in japan gave me a huge shock. People were talking about the end of world these days. Someday near the moon will be real close to the earth and those scientist predict that it will trigger natural disasters. Crap. Everyone I know will be safe =). I am really glad to know that my host family in japan is good. The earthquake did not affect them. Pray for the world. A peace world. All those Earthquake videos really freaked me out. That's terrible. And I heard someone who hate japan said this is not enough. This seriously drove me mad. I would like to call him to eat his own shit and shut his fucking mouth up. I don't know what's on his mind but definitely one should not think that way. Don't u think those innocent lives are too precious to be killed?

Today is not a bad day for me. Besides the breaking news early in the morning and the fb msg just now. And that two made my day down. Shoot. Went to a Chinese restaurant today and I have to say it tasted so different than what we have. I miss those homemade dishes. I don't know how many times I had mentioned this here but I am sure it was quite a lot. That's on my mind.

Field trip tomorrow! Next four days gonna be great great days =).

I want to tell my family I love you all a lot. Seriously a lot!

I thought I don't care bout you anymore but it was a mistake. I have no idea what have u told others but there must be a reason that people will say so. Taught me a lesson. Thank you.

Fatt - that's your words. Never forget.

March 7

2011-03-08T12:18:00.002+08:00

Another week is gone. Awww time passes so fast ><. I do really have much to do this week. The homework and of course field trip this weekend. Can't wait. It gonna be fun fun fun fun fun! I think =p. And yea because of that I have to finish up my assignment which is due next wed before I go. Cause I will be coming back on tue night and there'll be no time for me. Gosh Korean war =x. In Malaysia seriously I have not heard about it or know anything about it. Our history book don't touch on that. Anyway that's for modern world civilization class. It's fun though. Learnt something new.

Haha. I uploaded my ceramic projects to fb. Take a look at it I you want to. Seriously I like the flag thing. Lol. I did another Which I drew on it too. I hope it will turn out nice after fired. The colour look so different before an after it was fired =x. Never thought of doing art things in my life and I did it here. Lol. I was just handicap in drawing Weh. Hahahaha. It's pretty cool isn't? Lol.

Awww gonna start spending more and more money. Whoopssss ><.

Fatt - great night =)

March 1

2011-03-02T08:44:00.000+08:00

Woots. First track practise today. Seriously. Omg =x. My stamina is just too weak. Shoot. Have to train up seriously. I think it will be real awesome when i am up to the track. Gonna stay after school everyday for the practise. Cool huh. And hope there's no cramp tomorrow. I had it today for the first time ><. not a nice feeling though. Ahakx. Luckily weather was not that cold today =p. Oh crap. Imagine I don't have a single drop of sweat throughout the training. Maybe I didn't work hard enough =x.

Something really bother me is financial problem. My debit card is not working =x. But dad said he will find way to send me money. Seriously I spend not that much here. But I will spend much soon I guess. Hahaha.

Oh gosh. I miss all the foods in Malaysia. Like really seriously. Especially those spicy one. Woohooooo =p. And of course Bak kut teh during cold days. And all those homemade foods. My mum is a real good cook =). I gonna eat till drop when I go back. Hahaha. Guess I will gain weight when I back but not that much here maybe =x. Dare not to say yet. Ahakx.

I hope I Still drive well when I go back. half a year without driving. And different driving side. Roads. Everything different. Need some time to change back I guess. Especially jet lag =x. I took like one week or more to get used to the time here. Bla bla bla.

Officially 4 more months. Time passed so fast ><.
Woots.

Maybe I will just meet everyone in KL
Cause I think most of them are not staying in Kuantan dy =x

I just don't understand you ~

Fatt - Americanize my accent ><

2602

2011-02-27T05:14:00.000+08:00

My days went as usual. I am really nervous about spm results. Ewwwww. I have no idea. Lol. And really. I have to pick up American English. People just don't understand me. Just like I can't understand them when they speak fast =x. Ahakx. I wonder if my pronunciation Are really that weird. Woots. This not only happen to me. Some of the YES friends too ><. Lol. Facebook is a wonderful creation. We keep in touch and share thoughts on our group. Woohoo. Malaysian speaking in USA. Lol.

Suppose to be on vacation but seems like it's sick season. A lot people have cold. So this plan is cancelled ><. Woots. Sectional next week and field trip another week and spring break!!! Woots. And just in a blink of eye it's April =x. Woots. I think that time I don't feel like going back lo. Hahaha.

Seriously I am thinking of what to buy for everyone. It's just like kinda same stuffs everywhere =x. And shipping is a problem. The rates are high. =x.

And ya u realize the time and date is different now? I changed it to the time zone here =).

I am really gonna spend on myself if the results are real good =p.
Hahaha.

Bored weekend ><

Fatt - what the French toast? Lol.

2202

2011-02-23T11:46:00.002+08:00

Is not warm today. Yet I wore only a t shirt to school and hell ya. That was not fun. Cold ><. Ewwwww. I kinda miss the weather in Malaysia seriously. But I think I will miss the weather now when it comes to summer. Hahaha. For sure. Spring spring spring come come come!!!

I wonder what's everyone feeling now? For spm result I mean. My heart pump faster when I think about that. Yea. Another time not taking exam result by ownself. UPSR I knew my result through phone =x. PMR I knew my result through phone cause I was in Bali that time. And SPM I gonna receive my result through msg from mum or sis. Hahaha. Never get to feel the excitement of sitting in the hall. And listening to all the announcement and calling the straight A's student to the stage. Oh. I hope will be a real good result =)

Life here is getting awesome. I will have more stuffs to do in march. Hahaha. Omg. Anyone realize how fast the time pass? Is end of feb now =x. Woots.

I want some chili padi to burn my throat off.
Miss curry mee a lot! =x

Fatt - Nahx.

2002

2011-02-20T22:50:00.002+08:00

Woots. I think I am getting lazy nowadays. No idea =x. Yea. Sometimes I realize that people really need to take initiative for everything. If you gonna sit that and wait. Then wait lah. Realizing that the world is not only that small. Internet made me felt that I am not too far from my friends in Malaysia. Woohoo. Thanks for this amazing creation. Seriously miss u guys a Lot =).

And yea. I heard that spm result will be out on 23 or 28? Omg. So nervous ><. I wanna full A+. which I think is impossible. But hope for the best lah. Even if theres no full A+. Give me full A's combining A+ and A lah. Ahakx. I will really kill myself for not studying well and fooling around during that spm period if there's no good results. Aihx. Nahx. Wish me luck.... Full full full A+ =p.

I am trying to do everything I can do here. U know there's nothing too much cause its a smaller town though I like this place I think =).

Friend asked me what I would like to do over here.
Seriously. This is a hard question. Hahaha.

Fatt- hoping for the best =)

Valentine's Day

2011-02-15T09:35:00.000+08:00

Just another Monday (copy from Mel's blog). Hahaha. There goes the whole week of mine. Somehow I found time past faster now. I was always expecting something for weekend although sometimes it was really bored. Did had fun here. Oh tell u what. Something really make me excited is the weather! Woots. Is getting warm and warm now. I can throw the coat away dy. Hahaha. Wonder how much that I have to pay for shipping stuffs ><. it was 19.6kg when I came. Hoho.

I just used to the life here now. Bath once everyday which I felt not really comfortable though that was much for them during winter =x. Ahakx. No sweating much though.

Something I realized today. Ppl don't really understand my English. They said I pronouns it different way and I had my own accent. Lol. It's really time to Americanize my pronunciations and whatever it's related. Lol. Terrible me ><. Weird weird weird =x.

Woots.

Happy Valentine's day !!!

Fatt - single rocks =)

0802

2011-02-09T12:03:00.004+08:00

Thanks for all the wishes =).

Went to the young life last night. Friends brought me there. Had fun and they wished me happy birthday in a real special way. A real loud way. Hahaha. Yea. I hope can go somemore next week but seems like I have food pantry and I will not be able to go then ><. Ewwwww. Yea. And thanks for the band class for the birthday song.

I m 18 now! Legal age to do a lot of things.
Ngek Ngek Ngek =x. What u think? Haha.

Seriously I have no idea why I felt sleepy always ><. even though I sleep at 10 sth. Woots. In Msia this will be the time I on the comp and start chatting till late. Woohoo. And that caused my eye bags serious now. Awww...

Oh I never want to grow fat here but fit xD. Hmmm seriously I miss all the homemade foods and Malaysian foods and the hot soup that mum made. Serious. I realized my mum is a real good cook =). Guess that I will stay home eat for the whole month or few months after I get back. Hahah. too much foods for me to eat oh!

Not even a wish. Different from my dream =(

Fatt - care no more.

0602

2011-02-07T11:44:00.001+08:00

I forgotten when was my last entry but that's alright enough =x. The host brother and his two little girls came yesterday. Lol. Had fun time with the two little girls. Seriously cute. Lol. Sometimes I hate kids but sometimes I do really love kids. Especially their innocent and laughters are things you can't find in teenagers or adults. Woots.

Is something new this year that they celebrated my birthday on 5 feb and I received cards from mum and sis in Msia on 4 feb and Msia frens start wishing me on 6 feb. And tomorrow is the actual day. Yea. Malaysia time will be the right time. Ahakx thanks everyone for the wishes =). and if you SMS me. Sorry. U can't get it cause I din bring the num here. Lol. Hmm. I think tomorrow will be another normal day for me cause I don't remember I told anyone about my birthday ~. Woots.

And ya few ppl said they will keep presents for me and hope they will lah Har. Lol.

Packers won the Superbowl !
Is a real big event here. Woots!

Fatt- hoping.

2211

2011-02-03T11:09:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year !!!

Ahakx. It's like 11am now. I should at relatives house normally. Wearing some bright colour outfit. Bringing mandarin oranges and go on car with the lovely family. Woots. Out of sudden. I really wish I am celebrating CNY. I have never feel excited bout CNY before. All I want is always go back Kuantan fast so that I can meet up my friends. But hmm. I swear next year I will not miss the CNY anymore and will enjoy it to the fullest =)

Hmm guess what. I had an A- for my history test and I m proud of myself. Lol. A- here is 90- 97 marks okay? Not 70. It's counted as C here. Lol. I really pick up reading as a hobby dy I think. Maybe the book I picked just interesting and I love it. Haha. Soon I gonna get it done. Fast huh? Hahaha. I have been watching lots of videos these days. In different classes and on different things. Even English we were watching the movie. Ahakx I never feel bored to be in school YET. Just lazy to get up sometimes early in the morning. Lol.

Awww I have got my tenor sax! And as usual I am not good in the lower part. Will work it out real soon. It's yamaha Weh. Lol =). Is snowing all day long here. Chicago is terrible. Luckily not here. And it's groundhog day today! Check it out ya. Lol. They said will be an early spring this year. Yea I hope it will be too. Ahakx. I don't like cold seriously. Especially every morning standing outside the house waiting for school bus. The wind blew. Just horrible. Woots. I really wish to have some hot hot soup liked dishes over here. But errr I have not have any of those yet ><.

Miss you family bro and friends

Fatt

3101

2011-02-01T12:04:00.004+08:00

Oh here come the last day of january. A couple more days will be CNY. But it definitely show no difference here in this almost all white community. Serious. If you walk in the hallway of my school. You would hardly find colored. Got lah. One is on the same bus with me. But all the classes I have. None. Lol. Calculus teacher asked " Have you ever surrounded by so many whites before? " funny oh. Sounds like they gonna gang bang me or what. Hahaha. But Yeaw terrible. I din know all the homeworks and exercises we called are counted into grades. And now I realize =x. Luckily I get it all done and not too messy.

Tell you what. The TV of my host family is always on news and sports. Lol. And I watch it all time with them. Egypt crisis is real serious now. Lol. I wouldn't say much bout that. Even they discussed it in the modern world civilization class today. Cool huh. The lunch topic was debatable too. On gay, religion and prediction. I wonder how they get over that topic before I sat there. But it was really funny and let me saw the open minded of Americans. Ahakx.

Host mum was reminding us today that we are here to learn american's living. Here to learn as much as we can. Especially me who are using the tax payer money =x. Hmm. It made me felt guilty of not really doing something that an ambassador should do. Yea. I could have done presentation but they said later cause school is having lots of programmes right now. At leash I have done some community service =). Ahakx. Guess what? I have done my first ceramic project xD. Left the colour whig I have no idea whether I can finish it by tomorrow or not ><. it's a frog. Haha. I will sure take a pic of it and upload to fb. Check it out someday =).

To Mel : sarcastic yea. Lol. When I go back you drive me around KL ya xD
To Allan : happy CNY too bro!!!

Fatt - trying.

3001"

2011-01-31T05:14:00.000+08:00

There goes the weekend. Warm weekend I would say. Because it was sunny. Love that. Even though is like only 1 or 2 degree Celsius all time. People use Fahrenheit here and made me blur. At least I know How to convert from F to C now. Ahakz. Lol school lost yesterday ><. Woots. Yea those black guys from big school are good. And dunk dunk dunk. Cool huh. Lol. It was leading in the first half but in the second half they have better strategy and we ruin =x. Ouch.

Peoples' status are more and more cool now. I am no longer a twerp. Not goona be a love loony and i shall treat those feebs like nobody. Somehow I believe in myself that I am transforming into a better and better person each day. And what I deserve is what that I work and what that are belong to me myself. I get I think I use and I throw. America is called a dream land for everyone. I take it as some place of self developing. Polishing and renewing. Saw so many different kinds of people here. Though a small town. Is enough for me.

Am rest from story book right now. I knew what I like to read now. It's killing murdering crime and mysterious books. Lol. All books I would choose is those types. I wonder what teacher think when she find it out. There is whole row of harry potter in the classroom but I don't think I will take a look at it. Guess what. I wore only a t shirt and help host dad to clean car outside the house. Awww ><. it was real super duper cooling and I was just experiencing it. Haha. Luckily not dead yet.

I dreamt dad called me to back home last night. Pretty Za dao huh. Funny. And I realised I don't want to back home yet in dream =x. Maybe because I haven't explore much or the memories are still linger =x. Well. I don't give a rip on that cause I know I am doing something that people would dream of but never have a chance. Like the fb status o mine. Appreciate every moments of life then u will feel it great. That's true right? Nobody would like to ride on a roller coaster that go flat all the way. People just love the up and down of it and they would say "again" after that. Make sense.

Been attending the church every Sunday with host family though I am a Buddhist.
Somehow I found the pastor said a lot things that are meaningful. Made me learnt.

One day. When Your name come to me.
It will be like the wind. Off from my mind.

Freezing rain tomorrow and Tuesday? Woots!!!

Fatt - I live by myself.

2801

2011-01-29T11:19:00.002+08:00

It's Friday night here. Just back from the basketball game. Yea. North posey won again. JV and varsity boys. Cool huh. Tomorrow gonna be a big big game against Princeton. They said it will be a super crowded hall and you will see the players dunk dunk and dunk. Wow. Excited for that ya =p. Hoho sports freak now xD.

Yea friends were asking for a trip in feb weekend. But feb weekend is full with basketball games and that means we gonna record it =z. Awwww. Hope for a trip but Aihx ><. No idea wei... Really hope can travel here and there.... Woots.

Ouch. Just mood-ful to update. Gonna have a busy tomorrow. Fully scheduled =).

I have my second story book dy! Hehehe.

Fatt - doing fine =)

2701

2011-01-28T09:09:00.001+08:00

Woots. So fast gonna left like 5 more months here =x. Time do pass really fast. I m getting used to the life here. The cold. The school. At least I won't go to the wrong way anymore. Remember those days when I was confuse with the A wing and the B wing. Always confuse in the direction and lucky is that I never late for class so far. Yea it's different here where we have to go to the teacher but not teacher to come in our class. I think modern world civilization is going really well =). I like that class full with facts and politics. Discussion on everywhere. I prefer the relationship of teachers and students here. Everyone is just like friend and chat on every topics. Cool right? Hehe.

Guess what I did on school today? Filled in the matchmaker form! Hahaha. It was during calculus period when the teacher passed all the forms to us and called us to fill up. Then when he collected back he said to me " can't believe we actually do this in school right?" hahaha. Yea. That's interesting. I just put "friends only" for that interested in. Lol. Good boy huh xD. Getting on the track now. Gym class was doing alright so far. At least I can carry larger weights and of course muscle pain everyday ><. I should get some pain relieve pad next time I guess. Tell you what. Things here. Cheap! I dont know those branded one yet but American brands. Real cheap =x. I think I gonna use up all my stipend each month and hoho I am having field trip with the calculus class in march =p. Nice!

If you ever ask about friends. I shall tell you is harder to make friends here cause in every classes you will have different classmates and different environment. So ~ get what I mean lah. But at least I have my lunch gang and few people in each class to chat with now. Haha. Omg lunch time is scaring =x. Two gangs were asking me to sit with them and I only sat with one of the group. I hope I don't get in trouble for that. Woots. Those days worrying who to sit with. Now worrying which gang to sit with. Hahaha. Hmm i am not that under spot light cause there are like so many exchange students here before. All the exchange students hosted by my host family before went to this school. And see. They start hosting since 1995 =x. Guess how many now? Lol.

And surprisingly. What am I doing during my free time? You will never know. And u will shock. I read books. Story books. Lol. I Never read any books during my free time =x. But it's different here. Lol. Actually is for English subject. Everyone will choose their books individually and after read there will be a test regarding the book. It carry 10% of our grades. Woots. And those story books are not that boring. There are so many kinds and I gonna wrap my first book up by tomorrow I think. Unbelievable huh. Everyone reads here. I remember the first day when the teacher ask "What books you would like to read or what book you usually read?" "I never read any" "Oh man" she gave me a weird expression. Lol. I guess this must be a good habit ya =).

And WTF NS third badge in sept? Go to hell =.=.

I will be in school for CNY this year. Hoho first time ><.

I am still using the pen. For every worksheet of mine.
I wonder if you throw that already? =(

It chiseled my heart with all the memories.

Fatt - ridiculous.

2401

2011-01-25T11:10:00.002+08:00

It's the fourth day of school. School was delayed today due to the snow shower in the morning. School was alright as it was. People are getting more close as they start to speak normally to me. Not like treating me as a new kid anymore. But still got lah. I have bad memory in remembering everybody's name. Seriously I only remember few so far. All I did was hi and hi. Hahaha.

Joined the basketball team to their match that day. Wow they rocks man ! They just took these things serious. Seasons for them are like oh the priority. The old ones young ones everyone is talking about the recent games. Even school team. The whole community is just went so crazy with it. Lucky me who help in videotaping the games and get chances to go here and there with the team. Of course. Know more people =).

Been told that I have to do at least 5 hours of community service stuffs per month. Host mum was trying to figure things out for me but seriously in this small small town. She said it is limited and nothing much for me. So I guess I have to ask the school to let me do something. Ahakx. Hmm... I think nothing too much for me and one thing. I love volunteering job I think. She suggested me to go to the nursing home to visit the old people and help in food pantry. Oh god. I saw the food pantry Thingy on TV before and wow I think that will be good and I scare I will cry ><. I remember those days when I watched that on TV I was like pretty touched and now I am going to experience it. But it's only like 2 times per month ~ Hoho. Give back the community =).

Woots. I wonder when will I be really use to the American accent. Sometimes I find it hard to understand why host dad was trying to say cause he always mumble =x. Sorry lah. And I just reply him with smile yea or maybe? Hahaha. But for friends okay I get all the craps they were saying and seriously I can't crap in English yet. Let me pick up the skills xD. Hoho. Getting americanize now =x. Sports fever. I had my first baseball hit during gym class today. Fun oh! And yea the football (rugby) here was just awesome. Imagine I would sit in front of the TV from 5 to 9 just because there were game on =p. And basketball fever too! It's all the seasons now. Woohoo... Friends I shall get some Hoosiers stuffs for you before I back. Indiana is famous with that. I hope u guys know lah. Ahakx.

我好想还在希望什么
却看不清现实已离幻想很遥远

你放得好快我不明白

I wonder if the days were nothing for you
I wonder if the memories were only in my mind

=(

Ah USA !

Fatt - Aihx.